Today is another one of those days. I got off the phone and could not stop myself from crying. I'm happy Jenny is happy and enjoying herself, but I always can't help but think that she could be enjoying herself just as much with me still around. I tried telling her how I was feeling and she just avoided it until she had to go. In other words, the ( Read more... )

Once again I find myself dangerously close to just giving up. I've finally realized that motivation needs to fully come from within, but I am also learning that even once you get to that point, it's just as susceptible to being lost. I wish there was a koan for the monk who kept getting his heart broken, but the monastery is itself Buddhism's ( Read more... )

Awesome show, by the way. Another one I should have started watching sooner. But I think I learned something from it. I'm like Ted, at least in some respects. But I never dumped a girl on her birthday. Twice. Or consequently had my ass kicked. Sometimes I can totally relate to Ted , though. I just wish that, like him, I knew how the story ended. ( Read more... )

I barely even have the energy to make a big emo post. I feel like I'm bleeding to death.

20 is kind of a useless one, it's between drinking ages, truly just a birthday that means "I'm getting older"

That's all birthdays are pretty much, it's depressing shit without your family and friends. So post in here friends, and I'll tell you one thing I like about you more than anyone else.

Saw Ted Leo and The Pharmacists in Lansing Friday night, absolutely fanfuckingtastic show. Ted came out and sang Dirty Old Town a cappella for an encore, it was sweeeeeeeeeeet. Stayed around MSU the rest of the night, hit a few parties and more than a few beer pong cups, got to bed round 4:30. Got back home about 5 or so Saturday, the 'rents took ( Read more... )

Going under the knife tomorrow, 6 AM. Getting this damn cyst removed, which is a good thing.

But hey, surgery is surgery, and getting put to sleep and cut open is not such a great time. Hopefully I don't wake up geeking out from the anasthesia.

Oh yeah, and this Canuck would like to say Happy America Day everyone ;)

Damn, has it really been that long? I still remember that day to every last detail, that sick feeling, all those tears, like it was fucking yesterday. Jesus, a year's worth of living since that day. Lots of ups, lots of downs, LOTS of in-betweens. But it seems true that time heals all wounds, aided in its mission by good friends and the fact that ( Read more... )

but whatever. Last year before we came back from Christmas vacation I discovered I had a cyst in my tailbone area (well, actually, inside...um... there.) I went to a doctor and they gave me an antibiotic, and it got better. But obviously it didn't go away. This week it started flaring up again, so I go to the doctor today and find out it's mad ( Read more... )

Man I haven't felt this moody in a long time. Boredom, maybe?