oftentimes, i feel like i could just cry &cry. i wish i could blame it on hormones. but it isnt that. no.

i dont know why i feel like i should hide my pain from others but i do. in turn, it just deepens the wound because im holding it all inside.

i want to be embraced.

i need to be surrounded by more close friends..
&by close i mean within a 100 mile radius dammit!

yes. this is what i need right now.

could you wrap your arms around me?
&pull me close to you
let me breathe you in
while you whisper sweet nothings in my ear
let our lips meet
as my fingers find your hair
you could stroke my cheek
&i could fall for you

getting lost in your thoughts can be a dangerous thing.

ive been overcooking food all day today.

how in hell does winamp know just what to play at a time like this?

dear God,

you know what would be neat? if i could actually keep the blessings youve given me.
yeah, next time ill remember to be more specific in my prayers.

love, val

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me having crushes on guys who will probably never like me back.

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