im broken. i know im stupid. i give up on this whole thing im no good at it. i had faith and i prayed i begged god. fuck him. im tired of this. im not meant for such things.

well im not sure how things are going with dana ( Read more... )

well lets see its been awhile. the most important thing thats happened recently is well i fell in love with this incredible person. she makes me smile and laugh just by looking at me. she has an incredible smile and bright green/blue eyes that seem like pools as they draw you in. i love her but im afraid of losing her and i dont know what to say. ( Read more... )

i miss
i miss the idea
i miss passion
i miss idealism
i miss knowing myself
i miss

hmm more like im too tired to think straight

well life is ok ( Read more... )

Sarah Brightman - The music of the night ( Read more... )

i dont let let myself feel and im repeatedly misinterpritted. perhaps due to my lack of social skill ( Read more... )

i have always felt a strange detachment from the world. every act every word every smile every laugh every frown tear is held in check by some unseen but not unfelt force. i cannot truly show my interest it is subdued before it arises..... grr i gotta go bbl.

"When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that man can have no other vocation but to awaken that light on the faces around him; and you are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night you cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts you encounter."- Albert Camus

well lets see past week has been pretty good. i keep hearing some really awesome songs that i had forgotten about in the oddest moments. ive been hanging out with amy, shes gotta be the coolest girl ive ever met by far. shes fun, intelligent, beautiful and likes to play with swords. i dont know how this whole dating thing works though, you know ( Read more... )