So I got through a day I was regretting. After hearing about my friend's dad killing himself, I have been so unbelievably emotional. My mind has been running endless thoughs and questions beyond belief. I don't understand why this happened. What would cause someone to take their own life? It made me want to call anyone I have ever pissed off ( Read more... )

I have been having a really hard time with Matt moving. It was three months exactly from yesterday that he will be gone. I am not taking it very well. I spent 4 hours laying in bed crying the other night. I really don't know what is going on but it sucks. I can tell you that much. Part of me just wants to kiss him and be with him and just ( Read more... )

So I am sitting in class... bored out of my mind. I've gotten all my work done for the rest of the class so there is honestly no reason for me to even come anymore. I had dreams all last night about my different friends and stuff. We were all hanging out at Heather's house because it was her birthday. Her dad wasn't really her real dad in my ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. I climbed into bed over two hours ago and have just been laying there. There is so much going through my mind right now I can't even describe it. I am exhausted, but still can't sleep. I hate being kept awake because of thoughts. It's been happening a lot lately though. I honestly don't even know what I am looking for anymore ( Read more... )

My stupid ass teacher just cancelled class. I can't complain, but why must she do it at the last minute? Come on now. Oh well. Atleast I get to sleep in! Work went well today. Went by fast. Got some shit done and still have lots to do tomorrow! I can't believe how much money I am making. I'm saving it all up for 3 possible things. I got ( Read more... )

I have had a dead journal for almost 3 years now. I thought it was time to move on to a live journal. It seems to be the "hip" thing to do I guess. A lot of my friends who have gone off to college started a journal and I think that is great. I will still keep my old one, but that will be more for bitching and venting. First rain of the season ( Read more... )