mood swings. crying for no reason. laughing. talking too much. wondering when you became so ugly. tiring of this. of everything. counting the days. vaccillating. never never can. make up my mind that is. and i'm sure there's something wrong with this too. please enlighten me. i can't wait.

really. just because we're the only ones out here does not mean you have to force yourself to make small talk. i like the silence. you don't need to justify your presence to me, because i don't care what your reasons are. i don't know you and i thought we were past all those insipid so-where-are-you-froms. i can't tell anymore who's trying to ( Read more... )

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peel away the skin of the life you've been living. step away all glistening bone and muscle. press your hands to places that used to belong to someone else. take pictures of the transformation, before new flesh begins to grow, because this doesn't last, girl. it never does and it never will ( Read more... )

be careful, because i will kill you. if you mean what you say, then grow the fuck up and act like it.

if you think this is about you, you're probably right.

if anyone has an extra livejournal code they would like to send me, i would love that person forever. a friend of mine wants a livejournal, and i want her to have one, and i have no code to give her! please help us. thank you.

yesterday in the elevator a beautiful boy with wavy hair that curled around his ears said to me, "i hope you won't be offended if i say you look awesome." and i smiled and said, "no, that's nice. thank you." and i should have asked for his name, but it's been too long since i've done that sort of thing--actually maybe i never really did--and at ( Read more... )

last night: saw a play. not too bad. boy gets girl. i want to read it now. it's on my amazon wish list. i have to say, though. salem's theater department was better. but that's just me being prejudiced. rented the royal tenenbaums. somehow ended up with death to smoochy in the box. fuck. borrowed something else from meryl, which i didn't ( Read more... )

i was up until four o'clock this morning doing homework. four o'clock. i am more tired than i have been in.... well, days. thank god it's friday. please, just let me make it to two p.m ( Read more... )

i started filling out my application today. jenni knows what i am talking about. and so does megan. i feel good. not scared. just good.

i also did work today. i skipped astronomy to do it, but i did it nonetheless. and i think i may not fail my test on monday. that would be nice. and i have to finish the paper that actually is due this ( Read more... )