Thank you,
I had a blast last night. My body is sore from dancing and my head is pounding from the wine.
and thank you for the motivation.
thank you for making it easier for me.
There is a man walking to my door...what does he want. I'm not home. ah there he is. The dog just knocked over a planter.
I love myself today.

I shouldn't be this hurt. I'm doing it to myself ( Read more... )

4 hearts and still counting.
I don't deserve any of you. You need someone better. SOmeone who isn't so needy.
I feel so sick.

I HATE MYSELF! I'M NOT LIKE THAT! I DON'T MEAN TO! THERE IS SOMETHING SO WRONG WITH ME. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE.

i can't eat or sleep. tears don't come but i cry anyway. my stomach hurts and i want you to hold me. depression hurts more when you aren't around. i don't want to work today. or tomorrow. or the next day. i want to stay in your arms. please answer your phone or call me.
my heart is racing and i wish it would stop.

So I'm home because I am too tired to get up early anymore. Blue Rodeo is in the background and I think it's making me a little sad. I'm going to the library again today. I have so much to do. I'm not sure if I can get all of this done. I don't have enough energy. There is a staff part on the 11 at Hard Rock. I shouldn't go due to money issues but ( Read more... )

I'm working 5 days this week and i'm very tired. I'm behind in school and not getting paid enough at work. I'm spending money faster than I make it.
I am a happy person now. I'm trying my hardest. I need a break. A month where I can sleep in. Preferably with him.
No school in the morning for me tomorrow. SLEEP! I should go do that right

stress over load.
no, i do not want to talk about.
no, i do not need a shoulder.
i just want things back to normal.
leave me alone please. that's all i ask.
maybe this stress will work it's way out. fix itself. or if you let me, we can do it together and not leave it for chance.
again, i beg.
stay away.

I haven't been here in a long time. I don't really want to write at the moment either. I'm confused. Distant. automatic. lonely.

My mother made my sister a second birthday cake for no reason. Her birthday was 2 weeks ago too.
I haven't updated in a while and I doubt that I will in the future. It doesn't really matter considering I am the only one who comes here.
I've got a lot of things on my mind.
I'm going to eat cake now and remind myself what I need to do.