So Wade broke my heart.  heh what else is new?  He's gone and it was all so random and i dunno if i even understand even after 4 months.  I was horrible when it first happened.. but i had my friends.. which was amazing and i love them so much for that.. mainly i wouldn't be okay if it weren't for Ben.  I've missed him slightly throughout the months ( Read more... )

so i'm a little irritated with Wade right now well more kind of hurt .... He had to go home after work real quick to let the dog out.. he calls me like 40 minutes after he should have gotten home saying he's just now taking the dog out.. i know what he was doing.. i bet you he was smoking.. I don't have a problem with it at all.. it just kinds of ( Read more... )

(I talked to Wade and he said it was fine as long as i told him about it).. it finally happened.. something that i've wanted to happen for a while now.. finally happened.. I never thought that it would.. it was amazing.. so soft... so gentle... so sweet... so amazing lol.  I have never had a kiss like that before.  Her lips felt incredibly soft.. I ( Read more... )

Ugh.. i am so confused.. i love wade so much, but not seeing him much or talking to him is really starting to get to me.  and not to mention i have this crush.  I never thought that it would ever amount to anything.  Well she likes me back, apparently about as long as i have liked her (about a year)  I just don't know what to do.  This thing with ( Read more... )

I need to vent kind of..  guys are annoying me.. and surprisingly its not Wade at all.  its other guys.  Theres one who I know pretty well, and i have flirted with before, but it never meant anything more than just being friendly.  Got in trouble with Wade one night because I did and he told Wade what I said.  Which confused me.  but what confuses ( Read more... )

The Concert was fucking awesome!! I got to sit up front on the way there.. that NEVER happens with who I was with. LoL. It was an interesting ride there. Get there and have to wait for Travis, but Larry, Wade and I end up going inside. Mike went and met up with Travis. But in live we come across a slight problem.. which was really ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!  GRRRRRRRRR.  I HATE IT..  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I'm a little better now.... i think.. grr

I am completely in love with him. I really am. Last night he stayed over.. nothing new about that. But what it is new.. is that we both slept really, really well. It was just so nice and romantic. Even though it was hot and sticky even though the fan was on, we still cuddled the whole night. I don't think i fell asleep in his arms.. I don't ( Read more... )

I feel like telling about more intimate details of my 4 days with Wade and since like no one reads this (except for george) All and all it was a really good trip for Wade and I. Wednesday night after a lot of partying with annie, we had amazing sex. Just that.. amazing. Then woke up thursday and ended up leaving for my dads. When we got there ( Read more... )

hmm.. no one ever reads this except for George so i guess i can just type and see where this goes ( Read more... )