My heart is breaking more and more. How much more can I take of this. I feel alone no matter what and he doesnt understand. I'm left in a corner to be taken and used whenever needed. I have no right. I think love is evil. And I love him more, or else this would not happen and be happening over and over again.

Well it happened..a girlfriend of mine got married. The first one out of the high school group to do it and she hasnt even hit 21 yet. Wow!!! I'm happy if shes happy and I want this to work for her. I dont like how everyone is being so negative about her relationship and the fact that she is getting married. Maybe this is the one. Maybe this is the ( Read more... )

I made the biggest mistake at Hold’Em tonight. I thought I had a straight and I was throwing chips in like mad, without a single thought to it. I really was one card away from having a straight and lost the pot. I ended up winning in the end. Funny how things turn out. I’ve realized I can kill at poker because I’m so unpredictable. People look at ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here stuffed full of strawberries and delaying getting into the shower to go to work. This is not going to be one of those journal entries where I realize anything; I'm just talking so if you want you can move on now ( Read more... )

stinker =/

<3 u

Well, I'm here in Atlanta doing my last Auto Show for the Season ( Read more... )

is it supposed to be reality? its a beautiful tragedy on screen....but in life I'm just sad

The one night I decide to go out dancing with the girls....what happens...I get light headed and nauseous...im doomed to be a fucking grandma forever. This fucking sucks I was looking forward to this and now I'm home alone and watching a movie.

I act of out passion more than I do out of reason.
I need to learn how to not just react to things...its making things harder for me.

1) I'm tired of crying ( Read more... )