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End of an era
"Happy Thursday!" Dan says to me whenever he greets me, having arrived to partake in my weekly dinner. And I can usually muster up the enthusiasm to return the sentiment with something that does not sound sarcastic ( Read more... ) -
annual evaluation
Today I submitted to my boss my annual self-evaluation, this, because I am a salaried employee, consists of an essay that I write describing my contribution over the past year, highlighting my accomplishments and my difficulties. With all the humility this sentence can allow: I am a skilled writer. Despite the taupe-colored boring-dust coating ( Read more... ) -
Thursday Night Dinner
I spent a good long while trying to make myself a part of the team. I feel that I spent long enough, and contributed often enough, and was dependable enough, that my worthiness should have been evident and more importantly, appreciated. It does not feel that it is. Thus, I am discarding my hitherto standing obligation, y'know, the one that kept ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Dear friends, the following is the verbatim copy/paste of a letter I received this evening from my mother. I hope this clears up any confusion as to the attitude with which I regard her.
If you think this letter is sensible, we are no longer friends :)
Dear Ryan ( Read more... ) -
meme, stolen from sistrmoon
The last person you kissed says they love you, you say ( Read more... ) -
Another post-worthy dream
Last night I had another mind blowing mega-intense dream. I dreamed that I was exploring different universes, jumping from body to body through the sixth dimension, like a cross between Quantum Leap and Sliders. Time was not a barrier, nor race, nor age. I don't know if I stayed human. But late into the dream I became some kind of god-like ( Read more... ) -
Drugs, Piracy and the ridiculous law
While I have a great amount of respect for due process and the american judicial system in general, the primary objection I have against its modern manifestation is in scope. It generally does okay for those middle of the road crimes like grand larceny, auto theft, attempted murder; but I feel that the worst of crimes and the least of crimes are ( Read more... ) -
Dinner
It has been a significant challenge to figure out what day of the week I was going to re-situate my dinners. It seemed that Tuesday would allow for nearly everyone I love to attend, but alas, my light-sleeping neighbor-above has deemed only Monday, Thursday and Sunday acceptable nights for a potential dinner party and my respect for her is such ( Read more... ) -
The arrest of my cynical descent
I have come to a point in my life where I have begun to believe that my life's spark has been leaking out since birth, with regularity, such that by the end of my life I will be a shuffling, joyless husk. Fucking pessimistic I know. But it just feels that I am decreasingly able to experience the kind of soul-rending passion that has marked the ( Read more... ) -
scrabble dictionary
There are a few words that the scrabble dictionary does not allow that are a source of endless frustration to me. The most annoying is ZEN. Zen is not allowed because Scrabble declares it a proper noun. This is Bullshit. They say it is a proper noun because it is the first word, and general descriptor of Zen Buddhism. Fuck that. Zen Buddhism is ( Read more... )