I feel like I spend a large portion of my life being somewhere other than where I want to be, doing something other than what I want to do, being alone when I'd rather have company. I don't think it's all that fair. But I do it, not out of choice, but because there's something forcing me to do it, rather it be guilt, parents, fear, whatever ( Read more... )

My my, so much has happened since my last entry ( Read more... )

I have an orgo exam in less than an hour and I am surely going to fail it. And why? Because I am updating this stupid thing instead of studying. I'm pretty much hating my life right now. Bad things are happening in pretty much every aspect of it. Oh well. If I want good things to happen then I have to make them happen, so I have no one to blame ( Read more... )

Tonight sucked. I went to a program that the T9-12 RA's were hosting and I could not have felt more out of place. I hate that I don't feel like I'm friends with my friends anymore.

But whatever. Aimee Gottesman is all I need.

Last night was totally ridic. We ("we" being Shelby, Wright, Acid Mike, Matt Kantor, Ken, and myself) had a fire in the woods. It was awesome. We chilled and drank and smoked and told ghost stories and ate marshmallows, hot dogs, and onions, and it was fantastic. I must've peed four times. I love Sparks lol. After the bonfire we (minus Ken) went ( Read more... )

In case I haven't expressed this enough, it's really flippin hard having two different lives and two different sets of friends in totally different areas, and you have to stop and start seeing them like you would turn on and off a light. I hate this.

"I need to get high. My drunk is lonely." <--apparently I said that once. I win ( Read more... )

I hate the feeling I get when I get mad at someone, and then they do something totally awesome to make up for it. I feel like such a jerk ( Read more... )

Today was really awesome. Ryan, James, and I went minigolfing at The Castle in Chester. Well, an otherwise 40 minute drive took almost TWO HOURS because we got unbelievably LOST. It was crazy. It was pouring rain and luck was not on our side. But if there's anyone to get lost with, it's those two guys. They were so fun. And loud. And crazy. We ( Read more... )

Kaitlyn and I are the awesomest stalkers. And I feel like crushing something...HAHA. Basically, we rule everything.

Also, Aimee and I are going to see each other die Sunday. Should be fun.