Heartless Bitch. I have no time or... time...lol to be doing this LJ crap. It was a high school, post- highschool phase. lol Online is just for DL songs and... saying hi to ppl for like 5 min. Fun times. So sorry to all my hard core all time readers... i know i shall be missed. I'll still be checking you guys out but blah blah blah... i talk to ( Read more... )

Fuck this entry. nothing is coming out right. I feel so god damn alone. I fell like everything is like slowly crashing down right in front of my eyes and i can do nothing to stop the walls from crumbling. I gasp at the fact that, in actuality, i know exactly what is going wrong and how its far too late to fix it. I hate the process my mind goes ( Read more... )

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Okay well i have not updated yet again in some time now... Its feels so wierd not even being on a computer everyday! I have really nothing yo up date about. I love my life and my boyfriend and everything else! OMG i got this thing for my bed... nvm i'll update more later when i come on! OKAY i do have alot i wish to share! haha c ya

I have not updated, mainly becuase i can not get my computer to work. Well actually, my dad just cant seem to find the time and help me out. So now i really dont have time for this. I just dont care no more. I think its for the best. Who knows... mabie i'll try and keep this thing up. Whatev and so anyways, i am getting really sick and tired of ( Read more... )

I am putting forth far too much of an effort. I am probably sounding rude, or like totaly stuck up but i mean its not like i expect anything from anyone. I just feel unappreciated. I always try to not be upset about anything. I always try and not let things get to me but everything is pushing me to the limit right about now. I was really optimistic ( Read more... )

Yea my puter is still sick, like everyone else i know! haha So here i am on my mother laptop still! Grrr no backgrounds in my LJ to play with or n e thing!! *tear* But whatever! Anyways... So nothing much happening l8ly. Really boring. Just working and such. Trying to shop when i can. Almost done! haha kinda sad. So yea... i dunno what else to say ( Read more... )

Okay well i am on my mommy's laptop becuase my puter is incapable of working at the present time! Grrrrrr!!! So yea just wanted to update a bit! Um i worked today and it was fun times! The time went by really fast! It was Mallory, Emily and myself tonight! 3 of us!! Thats crazy. I thought it went really well with 3 ppl! Had some good laughs as ( Read more... )

Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around. I try and live by this, and so here i am. Here i am attempting to express every feeling traveling through out my entire body. Every emotion as clear as day for everyone to see. So relax, and open your eyes ( Read more... )

So these lonely tears are streaming down my face one by one. Only signifying the dissapointment i have within myself. I am a big time failure. I am a total let-down and i am so sick of myself right now, i wouldnt mind kicking the shit outta me, or doing worse. I cant stand myself. I am such a big time loser. Sometimes you have to look at your life ( Read more... )