I cant sit here without thinking to much. But the shit that goes through my brain, i cant get it out fast enough. I have decided i want to go crazy. I might be happier. I have to much to say right now. I hate this ( Read more... )

This world has changed so much. As it has in the past and in time only will more and more. I cant say that whats happening is anything that i am happy about. I cant say i dissapprove thoe. I accept change at any time and in any way. I dont know the point i am trying to get accros here but i guess i just need to say that whats going on now-a-days ( Read more... )

Well once again its late. I really thought that i had this awful late night schedule broken, looks as thoe i was mistaken. I went to bed so early last night. I was like passed out around 11:30pm but then i found myself waking up at 5am, then 11am till 1pm, then back to sleep till 4 when i had to go to work. It was awful. I cant get sleep anymore, I ( Read more... )

Ok i am in like the worst mood right now because i just wrote the greatest journal entry, like without stopping and it fucked up... and so here i am pissed off at everything!!!!!! I want to scream! I was in such a great mood! Grrr whatever u fucking piece of fucking shit computer! I'll try and re-cap from the LAST entry ( Read more... )

Sitting here alone in my very warm, dark room. Thinking far to much about life and how it can change at any moment, and with every moment comes a new oppotunity. Always remember that every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around. Life is so great, no matter how awful and terrible things may become. Never feel like you have to give up ( Read more... )

So i'm in a good mood! And this doesnt exactly happen too often. I might be ok or yea, well happy but extatic is more like how i am right now. I love feeling like this and i love being in a good mood even if i am all by myself! Its great and i love to think by myself. I am so awsum u guys! jkjk Thats just conceited but NO for real ( Read more... )

Why is marijuana not legal? Why is marijuana not legal? It’s a natural plant that grows in the dirt. Do you know what’s not natural? 80 year old dudes with hard-ons. That’s not natural. But we got pills for that. We’re dedicating all our medical resources to keeping the old guys erect, but we’re putting people in jail for something that grows in ( Read more... )

This all too familiar feeling in my gut is most unwelcomed. I wish i could remove all emotion from myself. Sometimes i think this pain is a bit too much. When all your time is spent thinking about how to make the pain go away, you begin to get desperate. You also begin to think of things, you shouldnt. Mabie it would make it easier for him if i ( Read more... )

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I fear this is it. You were most certainly my everything. I cant keep you from this. I suppose i only have myself to blame. I hope that at some point i really was in your heart. You were another lesson in my life. You were just another thing i had to learn from. I only hope you understnad what this is doing to me. Learning to say goodbye, is not an ( Read more... )