New revelations; of people, the world and of myself.

I know I can grasp my future.

 I hate myself.

Months, weeks, and counting...

Slowly but surely, it's getting better.

I wish I could be like you - just get with someone like there's nothing to it. Doesn't it disgust you or make you sick in some way? Y'know, at the very least I thought something might have come out of those years, but apparently, it hasn't for you.
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I'm so empty.

There's this big hole in my heart.
I carry this ache with me through the day, through the night - it's always there.

And I'm bleeding. I'm crying still.
Though no blood, no tears flow- there's nothing left inside.

Babe, I know not why we didn't work out. I know not why we turned out this way. And it hurts. It hurts so much I can't breathe ( Read more... )

I wish we could all be happy, and I wish that it didn't hurt so much.

I was a damned fool.

Thank you, and I hope you had the time of your life.

 An overwhelming feeling of dread has overcome me... it's threatening to spill out of me, bloods and guts ( Read more... )

If ever words were spoken
Painful and untrue
I said I loved but I lied
In my life
All I wanted
Was the keeping
Of someone like you
As it turns out
Deeper within me
Love was twisted and pointed at you

I really despise what I have been.

No longer a teen, yet still behaving like a child. I've hit the big two-o, and I've done nothing but destroyed everything.

I've attained the nirvana of stupidity.

Sad memories, bad memories,
washed away. I'm cleansed by the blood.

This scar, I'm starting over.

I rather be hated for who I am,
then be loved for who I'm not.

Beautiful Rose...
why are you wilting so?
I fear it may be that my grip so tight
has crushed and strangled you

But I had heard the wind whispering at my ears
their devilish plans of taking you away
And how the sun beats down on us
as if to suck the very moisture from our souls

I cup you so gently,
and listen to your sighs
I see that you are still fast fading
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