"Talk does not cook rice."
-- Chinese proverb

Fitness is a difficult thing to tackle at first.  There is no instant gratification.  It takes weeks to see results.  And it’s hard to get started when you’re doing it alone. But it’s the next big thing on my list of stuff to get done.  I know it will resolve a number of issues from how I feel about ( Read more... )

It’s still a struggle to do what used to come naturally and profusely - write.  Since last I laid word to glowing screen, things have slowly shaped up in the way I demanded.

And now I am battling with myself to not be distracted by all the wrong things.

It’s hard, though. I am an accomplishment junkie, a control freak, an Alpha personality and a ( Read more... )

"If you accept a limiting belief, then it will become a truth for you."
-- Louise Hay
Another significant day in the battle to get what I want out of life started early this morning.  Watching pieces snap into place, knowing that I did it with sheer force of will and an unwillingness to settle, is incredibly satisfying.
But it doesn’t take long ( Read more... )

"You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step."
-- Martin Luther King, Jr.

The noir script is finally in a place where I have started to show pieces of it to people.  I haven’t heard anything bad but I also haven’t had anyone seem all that moved by it either.  I suppose that’s better than it being flat out terrible. But, ( Read more... )

I have been getting these very strange phone calls from spoofed numbers all over the US for a year now.  Sometimes, they are from a recording.  Sometimes, the caller has a very thick Pakistani/Indian accent.  But they all usually contain at least one completely illegal element.  And that is why I haven’t fallen for any of them.

Just this past week ( Read more... )

“To be authentic is literally to be your own author … to discover your own native energies and desires, and then to find your own way of acting on them.”

-- Warren G. Bennis

This week is not going according to anyone’s plan.  My day gig was supposed to begin but the place is still not finished being built and the latest inspection resulted in issues ( Read more... )

"There is no end. There is no beginning. There is only the infinite passion of life."
-- Frederico Fellini

How fitting that Friday the 13th is my final day of total freedom before I resume a somewhat normal schedule with obligations beyond my own machinations.  I have been waiting for this so I can figure out a new routine.  I do better with ( Read more... )

“To attain knowledge, add things every day. To attain wisdom, remove things every day.”
-- Lao Tzu

It absolutely poured last night. I was up for most of it listening to the deluge outside my window.  Sleep wasn’t happening. I blame the bizarre march of hours that made up Tuesday.  I felt unsettled by a number of situations as well as what I was ( Read more... )

“You never will be the person you can be if pressure, tension and discipline are taken out of your life.”
-- James G. Bilkey

I have several drafts of that elusive one woman show but nothing works for more than ten minutes.  I’d have to fill an hour.  Someone suggested I take all the pieces and put them together but that makes no sense.  A one ( Read more... )

“The gesture is the thing truly expressive of the individual - as we think so will we act.”
-- Martha Graham

I’m not sure how it happened but apparently my self imposed sequestering has been taken as a personal assault or shunning by someone.  I have been drowning in my own discontent, desperately looking for the smallest sliver of light to ( Read more... )