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Wishing I Were a Plant Again...
Working two jobs is certainly good for keeping busy & distracting oneself. Nevertheless, it is exhausting. After five hours at Paulist I ran for 20 minutes (and was reminded how desperately I need to lose the 5-10 pounds in question), showered, got dressed, and now I have an hour before I schlep myself over to retail Hell. And I'm closing, so ( Read more... ) -
MF, You Can Sometimes Be a MF
I don't understand the purpose of trying to pull my life out from under me, MF. I am happy in my relationship, truly happy. I have found a place where our souls meet in true equality, where I share my life with him and he with me to the point where our stories become intertwined. You call em naive. You question my emotions, but this isn't the ( Read more... ) -
why someone shouldn't drunk post (besides the egregious spelling errors, of course)
Once upon a time, I fell deeply in love. And the boy was well meaning and beautiful and ambitious, but he was just that- a boy. He was unable to see himself for what he trule was, and because he cowered in fear of his own reality, he wsa unabl;e to see and to love others as the were. I gave all of myself to fixing this boy with my love, to taking ( Read more... ) -
Sountrack of a Heart in Conflict
1. Hallelujah- John Cale ( Read more... ) -
Writing Poetry
he said he was going to write a poem ( Read more... ) -
"Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow?"
I get so scared sometimes.
Even as secure as I am in our relationship, even knowing that he loves me (he does love me- I know this in my heart to be true. And I do not doubt it.), I worry. I used to worry before we had ever had a fight that one petty argument would be our undoing. Now that we have had that petty argument, I still worry. The ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Tonight I'm realizing...
...I really do have an abysmally bad work ethic.
...I still manage to be relatively successful...but that won't last forever.
...that WTF with my measurements? Why are they so weird?!
...that when somebody loves you, they will always see you as beautiful, no matter how dumpy and unfeminine you look in your choir gown.
...that ( Read more... ) -
Like Odysseus to Penalope
I am so blessed- so very, very blessed. How many women get to wake up to words of love, spoken from over 100 miles away ( Read more... ) -
Trouble in Paradise
Obviously I knew this time would come. And, to some extent, I willed it to come. It's not because I'm a masochist (although I am) or I want to prove that I'm dysfunctional (again, this needs no proof.) And I've no need to garner sympathy- those days are long behind me. But yes, after 7 and a half months, we had our first real argument tonight. And ( Read more... ) -
"Nothing Gold Can Stay"
What does that mean--'tame'?"
"It is an act too often neglected," said the fox. It means to establish ties."
"'To establish ties'?"
"Just that," said the fox. "To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you ( Read more... )