It's amazing
How one person can completely ruin you.
Can slam you into a wall and make you burst into tears on one of your best friends shoulders.
Can completely blow you off and think nothing of it.
Can completely and utterly destroy you.

It shouldn't be happening to me.
I should be fucking over this bullshit by now.
But I can't yet. I just can't. And I ( Read more... )

I hate everyone

and everything

in this stupid school district.

Im dropping out.

OH I'm pissed. I just wrote this whole fucking thing and it got erased. Fucker...

Alice Vicious. 
Let me break that down.

Alice - From playing alice in the movie. From my obsession with the story and the game.

Because I'm just like her.

Vicious- From my obsession with Sid Vicious and the Sex Pistols. Because I used to be that way.

But I'm not anymore.

I ( Read more... )

I wish

Ice could numb my soul

Like it does my bruised black knees.

I want to move on.

I want to let go...

But I don't know how to...

someone help me, please.

I've never needed it more.

Why the hell do I do this to myself ( Read more... )

When on vacation I need to be entertained or else my mind wanders.

Wanders to what you may ask?

-Perversion
-Psychotic relapses
-Kinky shit
-Hallucinations
-Paranoia
-Anxiety
-Insanity
-Depression
-OCD

Thats about it really.

Maybe short term memory loss too. 

And fucking drowning in them.

Someone up there likes to see me squirm ( Read more... )

I am very much under the impression that once you date someone, you can't be friends again...

And that kills me.  ='[