...right from the start, I feel like I was born with an invisible heart. Out of my depth, I am out of my league, watching everything just slip away from me...I just can't seem to make my monsters go away...Because I'm out of my depth, and I am slowly going out of my mind ( Read more... )

Well, I had my share. I have been sent to my room. I've been sat in a chair. And I held my tongue. I didn't plug my ears. No, I got a good talking to. And now I don't know why, but I still try to smile when they talk at me like I'm just a child. Well, I'm not a child. No, I am much younger than that. And now I have read some books and have grown ( Read more... )

...abuses of light and dark, of violent contrasts, of singular colors, extravagant attitudes, draperies shattered and crumpled haphazardly; but in all that, there presides a depraved energy, an unhealthy strength that betrays the great painter and the madness of a genius." - Theophile Gautier on El Greco ( Domenikos Theotokopoulos )

So........I GOT ANOTHER SCHOLARSHIP FROM MOORE! (for the YAW classes- still not in yet.) And this one is a full scholarship. So I guess I'll be taking another class- ironic, because now I'm not sure I want to. But its free, and its art, so I will. Blah. Its fucking cold, and work was busy (and I couldn't go see BAP, grrrr....), so I'm going to ( Read more... )

"So? Sometime or another everybody wishes everybody would go away. Sometimes I'll wish YOU would go away. What I'm telling you now is that even at those times, even if I TELL YOU to go away, you don't have to go away." -Pipo, Speaker for the Dead, Orson Scott Card

When I can here you say, "You make me feel like a whore"....

So, like Amanda, I am a survey whore. What can I say?  ( I love me. )

...a dream not quite real in it's mortar and stone but authentic in spirit, more Toledo than Toledo itself." -                -George Kent on El Greco's View of Toledo

El Greco is at the Met.  Holy Fuck.  I'm sure that, unless perhaps you are Karen or Solomon, you do not understand how big this is.  ( Holy Fuck )

"Fathers appear to love us without condition if only we can interpret their complicated language. Fathers move over expanses of time, across abysses of generations; fathers move across impediments, opening out, softening, becoming unguarded, giving away the rules of fathers to younger, angrier men; fathers, over time, become solicitous and kind, ( Read more... )

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile ( Read more... )

"There is a legend about a bird which sings just once in its life, more sweetly than any other creature on the face of this earth. From the moment it leaves the nest it searches for a thorn tree, and does not rest until it has found one. Then, singing among the savage branches, it impales itself upon the longest, sharpest spine. And, dying, it ( Read more... )