I miss my friends and family.

I am such an unremitting asshole.

I am so tempted right now.

I need to buy an air horn.

I'm listening to "Vesuvius".

I love and miss you John.

I miss singing.

My....I'm not drunk enough to express most of my emotions. My journal is going to be the only outlet for now. Drunk posting is my love. Slowly; I'll be submitting my thoughts and yes, I'm aware that my expressed thoughts are fragmented ( Read more... )

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I was finally able to talk to Amber today. I'm greatful. I thought that she may have been indisposed. Turns out, everyday for the passed 5 days, she has had to call paramedics to her attention for every day that she has been trying to detox. She's at her sponsor's home and I hope the best for her. I'm just ecstatic that she answered my phone call. ( Read more... )

I am jaundiced. Straight up. I made a mistake and decided to detox without medical help. I started to have my usual anxiety attacks, paranoia, nightmares, and kept on riding through like I had done before. My kidneys were not pleased with this decision. About 4 hours ago, I started to have violent shakes, muscle twitching, kidney pain (not to be ( Read more... )

I miss this.