well, the night before prom, it's almost getting late and considering the long day i have coming up, i should get as much rest as possible before tomorrow. i had a long day today also, and tomorrow is going to be a great end to a long week of planning trying make tomorrow night as magical as possible.i went to classes today and really had only one ( Read more... )

how can you see into my eyes like open doors leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb. without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead it back home. Wake me up. Wake me up inside. I can’t wake up. Wake me up inside. Save me, call my name and save me from the dark. Wake me up. bid my blood to run. I ( Read more... )

just lost this entry, sucks, recap, stressed, catherine's not going to prom with christian, christian's not going, just me and michelle, we will have lots of fun, don't care about friends anymore, asshole phase, very angry that entry was lost.

pretty girls, they're everywhere, especially around here. this is for you, sins, to show you that guys don't always go for their "type", as long as a girl has a nice personality and can be there for him then it doesn't matter what "type" she is.there are so many girls i've wanted to go out with. the prada gucci golddigger, the funky fob girl, the ( Read more... )

ah, i was working all day today. so tired. the bad thing about working for a family business is that you can't quit, the good thing is your family can't work you that hard and the pay is very decent. anyways, my mom got really sick today so i had to go work a twelve hour workday today managing the restaurant. so i guess this makes me a full fledged ( Read more... )

oh man, so much happened in one day, it's almost surreal. i would almost go as far as to say that my situation took a complete 180.i went the track banquet with christian but we didn't have time to do our hair and mine looks really bad with my new haircut because i basically have the same hair as harry potter if i don't do anything to it. so i ( Read more... )

a situation has changed drastically and with it my mentality should follow but i'm not going to let it change. i stand by my beliefs no matter what, even if i know that what i believe in is inherently wrong, i'm an asshole like that i guess. trust me, nothing has changed, i still hate you as much as i ever did.did i ever mention that i have a ( Read more... )

that song, sadness and sorrow, i find it amazing how so much emotion can be conveyed in one song with no words. pain, anguish, indifference, reticence, it's all in there but i can't even begin to describe it all. the most important of all, that i'm feeling, is the sense of anger and the longing to just be alone. i guess this is just me now, a lone ( Read more... )

i've known this, that friends come and go and that self-reliance is the smartest way, but the unwanted idealism within me kept fighting. it is true, however, and such maudlin sentimentality towards those unneccessary things in life almost sickens me. by things i mean, close friendships. by no means i am not against having friends, i believe that it ( Read more... )

i just got back from hot import nights and man am i tired. the night was a big bust, i didn't do what they said i would be doing. i just got this dinky wristband so i could go in and out while i passed out magazines, i didn't interview any models let alone talk to them. comlications arose and i barely got any money out of it. and my feet really ( Read more... )