I am lost. I think I need some help. I thought I would have you forever, not just 23 years.

so what do you do when you have finally reached breakdown mode? is there an 800 number that tells you where to go from here? i always thought i was a grounded person, that i had my shit together and i could get through anything because i was strong enough. in all honesty, i have lied to myself all along. i moved, i started a new job in a field ( Read more... )

I AM LOOKING FOR A VISON OF DISORDER HOODIE OR SHIRT ETC. FOR TIM. ITS FOR XMAS SO DONT BLOW IT BITCHES. IF YOU CAN FIND ANYTHING ID LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!!

i wish i wasnt the kinda person that wears my heart on my sleeve. everyone asked what was wrong and if i was alright. of course i am, im just bleeding inside. i would never flinch, but you, you know im weak. and youll never stop will you-is a question mark even necessary? i cant even lie to the mirror. you are breaking me down and i am ( Read more... )

so let me break it down for you. i dont give a fuck about what is going on in your life. you piss bitch and moan and i just dont care. feel sorry for yourself b/c it makes you more pathetic and even more reason for me to want to break your face. dont ever say you wish you had cancer b/c you dont understand it. you are a sad dramatic girl and ( Read more... )

i havent written in so long. i have a million things to say and no way to say them. i know i am angry. im trying to somehow have a therapy session and all i can think about is bashing the keyboard into the wall. the hole in my heart is gushing hate and im lost somewhere between reality and hope. the phone never ceases to ring. i want to ( Read more... )

fuck you. i hope your apathy, and your truth, and your lie, fucking tears you apart and eats you alive. you pathetic coward. how many hours would you wait. i have no questioning tone. a watch is a second is a moment ive fallen to my ten millionth death. your words no longer my heroine or meth. keep on your disguise you malevolent cunt. i ( Read more... )

and everyone else has somewhere to be. oh miss april where is your june, where is your sanity, where is your fucking moment? youre bleeding me through and ill let you do it. i hate your l's and your t's and the shit you feed me on your knees. a million miles away and i got your letter. tell me you arent my match.

hello again starlight. your infraction is proving true, and you are once again draining my heart.

Linz left on wednesday. 3 weeks in indiana then to iraq. i didnt think it would be so hard. went to bw3s w/ her, zach, travis, and chris on tuesday to get a beer and hang out before she left. i forgot how much i loved to talk to her and how retarded we are together, which is making this all the more difficult ( Read more... )