Sometimes I catch myself picturing myself dying in some undramatic, quiet fashion but then I feel numb and slightly unmoved by it. Like I got outta the car at a gas station and pictured myself sitting on a rail, losing my balance, and then gently breaking my neck as I fall backwards. It just kinda makes a soft snapping sound and I'm instantly dead ( Read more... )

i miss living with dad. making him food, watching movies til 4 am on a friday night, building puzzles at the dining room table, reading in my bed knowing he's reading in his, talking in the living room about history ( Read more... )

"Once he had told her something that she could not imagine: that amputees suffer pains, cramps, itches, in the leg that is no longer there. That is how she felt without him, feeling his presence where he no longer was. When she awoke on her first morning as a widow, she turned over in bed without opening her eyes, searching for a more ( Read more... )

"Then she went to the candy sellers sitting behind their big round jars and she bought six of each kind, pointing at the glass because she could not make herself heard over all the shouting: six angel hair, six tinned milk, six sesame seed bars, six cassava pastries, six chocolate bars, six blancmanges, six tidbits of the queen, six of this and six ( Read more... )

I can remember being down there with my little CD player and my copy of the Brokeback Mountain soundtrack. i had been relegated to the stacks of magazines and told to count and organize them. no windows, no people, just me and my music ( Read more... )

I AM AN AMERICAN CONSERVATIVE ( Read more... )

however Peep surgery makes me laugh!

"'Of course there is one God,' Gilluk said. 'But He has many forms and many lives, all at once. Can you understand that? This sword is a god. I am a god, though I can die. However, I am not standing here to discuss religion with you ( Read more... )

"Webs caught at him with weak but insistent hands ( Read more... )

i love you...a lot.