Why do I always feel like everything is my fault? I got sick and I feel like it was my fault. I don't want to go back to school, that's my fault. Every relationship that I have ever tried to create or had and ended is my fault.... What the hell am I doing wrong? I am being me, and well, I guess it's just not good enough for anyone, including myself

There's so much that should be seen as so little. Leave it to an 18 year old girl to make things harder than what they should be. Answers, that's all I want. I'm not asking to create something, even though it would be nice. Yet, here I am. Same spot as always. Standing in the corner dumbfounded. What happens if I don't go around for a while? Will ( Read more... )

" I'm 18 not 68 looking for love...Who wants to be in love at 18 anyway?"

I DO.

For some reason, this doesn't surprise me. My friends and my family are my life and I don't know what I would do with out them.

(  This is me )

Trouble, that's all this ever turns out to be. I put WAY too much effort into things where it doesn't belong. But, sadly, that's who I am. I won't be able to change it for anyone, nor do I want to. I want to give up on it all, but I refuse to give in and call myself a failure. I'm 18 not 68 and looking for love. It will find me when I least expect ( Read more... )

 A lot has happened in the past few days. A lot of which I never thought would happen to me. But that's what I get for thinking that. There are a select few who actually know what's going on. And to be honest that's the way that it's going to stay. For those of you who want to know, here is the short version. My mom and I got in a huge disagreement ( Read more... )

My life, summed up, is a snow globe being forever shaken. The things I want are just those snowflakes that fall and are mixed with the things that I need to do, however, they are un-unique. I am never able to settle things down to find what I want.

I'm so tired of putting faith in places I know it shouldn't go. I'm so tired of being played, yet I'm stupid enough to allow it to happen and place myself in that type of situation. Well no more. I can't go on like this. Every time something like this happens, I sit here and wonder what the hell I did wrong for this to happen to me. To all those ( Read more... )

So I've decided. And I have been thinking about this for some time now. I either want to get a bike, like a Yamaha, or date a guy with a bike. But if I dated a guy with a bike, he'd better have another car or something...if not, then looks like I'd be doing a lot of driving!

I think that I am bound to be alone. I've realized it, but I don't want to believe it. Who would want to love someone that is broken as I am? I don't think I would have the patience to love someone like me.