i knwo its been a good long while.....but i actually read my friends list everyday lol. so i knwo whats going on with you guys, but ive just kinda been hiding out i guess. so school soon huh? yeha i guess. itll keep my mind off missing daniel so much. work is ok, i mean it is work. life without daniel is really hardly life atall. yeha i dont really ( Read more... )

yeha i know its been a while...o well. life sucks, work is okay, home is yuck. yeah whatever. hung out with mark last night and had fun for the first time in a while. its kinda nice to be treated like a girl and not just like a buddy, a friend. i guess i just miss things being the way they were. like, my life is gonna be suck like this until next ( Read more... )

so i miss daniel. alot. like the pain is unbearable. i want to scream and cry, but i cant. the nonprivacy of the fema trailer now means that if im upset i bury my head in my pillow and hope no one can hear me. i know everyone says, oh you can call me if you want to talk. but i dont. i dont want to talk. i want daniel. i dont want to talk to someone ( Read more... )

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i hate daniel right now. i hate how whenever he goes out in the middle of the night with people, he never invites me. i feel so left out of his life, and yet i include him in EVERYTHING i do. he apparently went to hooters last night with richmond and like a shitload of other people. like a fucking party. nice. im so glad i was at home laying around ( Read more... )

i cant explain but i cant shake this terribly depressed feeling. it probably doesnt help that daniel leaves in like a little over a month and im going to DIE without him. honestly. i have no other real friends, and plus hes my best friend anyway. i just get so unbelievably sad, like im frozen. i cant find the energy to get up, to think, to move at ( Read more... )

ugh i still have 20 mintues before daniel gets out of his geography class.... my test in sexed was sooo easy!! i did awesome. i cant wait to gt my grade back because i think i did really well. there were maybe 2 i was unsure of, but i guess pretty well. im wearing my awesome new coach z shirt thats just green with the big yellow z on it. i lov eit ( Read more... )

yeah i so totally have a sex test today and im really not ready for hte anatomy part. so many crazy parts!!! why cant it just be simple like diagrams with "which picture is the penis?" and "what picture i the vagina?" if only. i have to remeber things like corpora cavernosa and perineum. yikes. i want so bad to get an a so i can be a sex superstar ( Read more... )

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eh sitting in uno right now....goin thru crap with daniel, but i think were ok now. i hate only seeing him 2 days a week. its really taxing on our relationship. i broke my toe at work, actually i think it more my foot than my toe, but whatever, it fucking hurts. i also shaved off my fingernail while shaving the same night after the toe broke. ouch ( Read more... )