I know it's been forever since I updated, but who cares. It's my life, right? On the contrary, I have been feeling an incredible loss of control lately. Not that it wasn't around before. I'm just noticing it now. I'm on the verge of having my only real (eg. present) friend move to God only knows where and I still live at home where I have no ( Read more... )

It was a hard day today at work. Though, the upside to it all is that I can update my blurty here, even though most of the other stuff I normally do is blocked--and, no, not bad stuff. Just LiveJournal, myspace, natalie dee, instant messanger, etc ( Read more... )

1.smoked a cigarette - no ( Read more... )

I am so emotionally drained from camp that I can't even put it into words. You know, I didn't realize how far away from God that I am until this morning. I feel like I'm sobbing but no tears will come.

I know you know ( Read more... )

Shredding checks. That's what i'm doing right now. My bank changed it's name about three years ago and I finally figured it'd be a good idea to toss the old checks and get new ones. Better late than never, I say ( Read more... )

Went to the fireworks w/Hannah, Laura and Ike (we sat with Erica, too) yesterday and had a GREAT time! (Especially after working all afternoon at JC Penney where it was hot and boring.) We ended up with a pretty good seat--except for the tree... But we all agreed that we had never watched the fireworks through the branches of a willow tree and it ( Read more... )

It's been a busy last few days. I went to visit the Parks on Thurs-Sat and then I worked straight Sun-Tues afternoon. I was supposed to go down to Portland tonight with my whole family but I had to say 'no' because of Girl's bible study tonight at 6. As you can clearly tell, I'm not AT Bible study and the reason is this: even though I give up ( Read more... )

Because its 17,18,19 routine
And here at 23 it's the same old me

And that one thing of the moment
That we all happen to like will

Only very temporarily
Kinda break the cycle

Of the double edged sword
Of being lazy and being bored

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