i've cut all my numbing agents outs ( Read more... )

I bought a pack of smokes ( Read more... )

I don't even know who I am when it comes to men
I want them to cure my depression and anxiety
And when I realize that they can't
I jump to the conclusion that they're feeding it

I'm afraid if I lose you
I'll start drinking again
Too much
More than before
But I'll never tell you that

I feel good and comfortable wrapped in your arms and in our conversation. I remember and remind myself of the little things when we are apart ( Read more... )

I love missing the warm things
I love missing your warm bed
I love missing what's in your head

I miss the smell of your house and of you
In the same way I miss the way you touched my back when we woke up in the morning,
together

I love you more than the sun on a hot July day and
I love you more than the moon when it shines through my window,
full
I love you more

I will never bring a little girl into this world
Knowing her heart will ache in the same way mine does
Knowing she will break in the same ways I do
As often as I do

I will never bring a little boy into this world
Knowing he will keep a girl up at night
Knowing he will make her cry with his negligence
As often as it has happened to me

I waste all my
11:11
Shooting star
Dandelion
Wishes
On boys

do people our age still get butterflies or am i made from fucking stone

i fall in love excruciatingly slowly and carefully