Two nights ago I had the weirdest dream. I dreamt that the Forum Shops at Caesars Palace was the stage for the play Les Misérables. I dunno why since Les Misérables is set in France not in Rome, but then again, dreams usually don't make sence. Anyway, I was acting in the play.... but at the same time I was living it.... it was really my life. There ( Read more... )

Look at me, you might think you see who I really am, but you'll never know me. Everyday is as if I play a part. Now I see if I wear a mask I can fool the world, but I cannot fool my heart ( Read more... )

I'm a FUCKING Idiot!

Things are going so good for me, so why the FUCK am I feeling this way?? What the hell does this mean?? I'm ashamed and I'm scared. I'm embarassed!

It was a pretty cool day... I got to hang out with Jason R, again! It's unbelievable how nice that guy is to me. So yea, I like it, DUH! I hope we DO get to hang out outside of school sometime soon.

So I have A LOT of homework to do... FUCK! Haha... whatever. I can handle it. I have to.

I'm never gonna change... I'll be putting things off for the rest of my life. So far, it's gotten me by alright, but my adult life has not yet begun. FUCK!! I have a feeling I'm gonna fall. HARD! Fuck it dude, I'll just take it as it comes, at least I won't be alone ( Read more... )

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I'm happy. Hehe... I really am. Things have just been good these past few days.

So today in my history class we watched a video on the Boston trail(wich landmarks a lot of places that had a major role in the American Revolution). When the video got to the cementary and showed us the burial grounds of Benjamin Franklin, Paul Revere and a few others, TEARS started rolling down my cheeks. I don't know WTF came over me. I guess I ( Read more... )

Ever since I was little, I had dreams about me getting married. But on the wedding day I would ALWAYS get depressed, and I didn't want to marry the guy. I felt like I was being forced to marry him. I still loved him and all, but I was grossed out by him, and I just couldnt do it, I couldn't marry him. I couldn't even LOOK at him. I didn't want him ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if today was a good day or not. A lot of good things happened... but at the same time I had something that was bothering me. I know it's the same feeling I've been getting recently... but I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS! FUCK! My best friend couldn't even tell me what the fuck it could be... and she is the person who knows me best besides ( Read more... )

Okay, here we go. I've lost ALL motivation. WTF HAPPENED? I was doing SO good! I was focused, I was on track, and SO DAMN EXCITED! ::Sigh:: It's okay... 3 weeks, that's it ( Read more... )