I have turned into a sap ( Read more... )

Mr. Darcy, School under control, money in the bank, plans for a ticket to espana...with Mr. Darcy...

Finally...

Now to find some pajama pants...hmm...

Social conventions blow.

For some reason, in todays world, I feel like if I were to call the guy, that I would somehow doom the entire thing, if there ever was a thing to begin with...

What I want to do is to have everything out on the table...

What I've got is a big surprise...and I'm just supposed to wait around...

BUGGER!

So I've realized that I have a pattern in my life, my "social" life. I meet dude, I talk to dude, dude sometimes talks back, I make fool of self and dude finds this amusing, dude and self hang out, dude ends up to be jerk. Tadaa ( Read more... )

So I'm a bit "estressed" out, as Dubra used to say. The people who are supposed to try and make my life as good as possible, as stress free as possible, aka my parents, are the cause of the stress. Here ya go darling, you've gotten a full ride to college, a book stipend, you've stayed at home and help make the house run by taking kids where they ( Read more... )

College...here's how it is going to fucking far ( Read more... )

It's funny how it seems like all the decisions I've made in the past, and ended up regreting are suddenly coming back to taunt me. I don't understand. Why do I make the same mistakes over and over again? Why do I insist on picking the wrong choice at the wrong time when the right on is generally very near by ( Read more... )

My Profs kick arse, in Espanol and English...the Math dudes are, well, err, math dudes so yah. So far so good.

It's incredibly funny how things work out, I was thinking about an old friend, and now they appear to be coming back home...weird.

I need to remember to suck it up more often. =)

I kinda wish that I could be that woman in Psycho, the one who gets all sliced up in the shower, sounds completely insane. That's because it is. My life is not how I wish it, nor has it been, I just hope it will get to that point. Someday ( Read more... )

I work tomorrow, and start school the next day, I was really excited, and now, now I think I'm just scared shitless. Not about classes, those are in the bag. I'm scared of people, my fellow students. The females who will judge me, the males who will mess with my head (and to be fair, vica versa). I'm frightened of getting attached and equally so of ( Read more... )