i'm such a moron. i should have talked to brian monday and dealt with whatever nonsense is upsetting me, instead i made a huge production in my head and he has no idea what is going on. and i have no idea what to say to him, because i've said it all to myself so many times ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do. i don't want to see brian because i'll basically end up emotionally ambushing him and that sucks a lot, but i don't want to not see him because that makes me feel terrible ( Read more... )

i am very confused and frustrated right now. brian and i have very busy schedules and we don't have time for each other. if i tried, i could see him every day but i really don't feel like trying. but along with the frustration, i really really miss him and i don't want it to be like this. it especially sucks because it's not like i'm going to have ( Read more... )

i love being in love. warm fuzzy feelings all around.

i'm also really excited because i've learned how to knit. this means i can actually follow patterns and shit, i think. next step: officially learn how to crochet so i can make more than just hats.

i really don't know what i feel right now, other than just 'bad'. i'm torn between trying to figure it out and deal with it or just waiting to see if it passes. cause honestly, brian is not going to buy it when i keep saying nothing is wrong. something is wrong, i just can't pinpoint it. i love him so much adn i love spending time with him, but ( Read more... )

i just got an email from john harbors asking me more questions, so maybe they will hire me yay!
also, papa is either not speaking to me or just dealing with the germany thing. yay just dealing!

i feel really panicked right now, it started around 6 today. i think mostly it is from being around so many people after being alone, but i'm afraid a lot of it has to do with the RA position. i feel really overwhelmed with the amount of work i have to do, and even more so because my 'floor community' feels like a lost cause. i need to keep telling ( Read more... )

i've been having a pretty shitty past two days, because brian keeps saying 'i'm trying to come up' so every day i wake up hoping today is the day he makes it up, and as the hours go by i'm more and more dissapointed. so this morning he sends me a message saying he IS coming in the next three days and i just feel shitty still ( Read more... )

Katie and I went to kerida's b&b, Jamieson House, for game days and had a fantastic time. it's an amazing, beautiful house and her family is really great. hopefullly i'll be able to go again next year ( Read more... )

finally got to hang out with cooper and caitlin and staci tonight. it's nice cause they're pretty much my only gtown friends. but we had a good time ( Read more... )