I'm not going to ask for forgiveness anymore, or say I'm sorry. I'm just going to ask if you can help me make it better. I realize a lot of my mistakes in perception and what my brain did because of what happened. I didn't listen to my real knowledge, which pretty much told me things would be okay, instead I overreacted to your actions and ( Read more... )

okay, I'm gonna have 2 suitcases, I need to take ( Read more... )

it's creepy cuz I can feel this thing getting happy or sad... and it's a nasty motherfucker.

ah well, maybe I'll confine some stuff to my journal.

sexiest bitch in the world


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things are lining up...

wish I could enjoy that more...

I really don't want to die, but if some things don't happen I won't have a choice.

I'm reading this girl's journal and getting *pissed off*.

I hate abusers and rapists. nobody should kill themselves or feel guilty for being raped when they truly hold zero responsibility. fuck forgiveness. maybe it's just cuz of the similarity with mental reactions to crap, I'm just further along with dealing.

*eye twitch*

ugh. I don't even want to read about other people going through the same crap after being raped/abused... malicious thoughtforms causing physical pain and all that shit. I just decipher it so fucking differently, it's dumb to treat it as normal ( Read more... )