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omfg... is there anyone *sane* and *rational* who has PTSD or has been raped? Like not someone running into abusive relationship after abusive relationship? Or lame guy who is going to rape you anyway to lame guy who is going to rape you anyway? Fuck, I would be ashamed. I'm ashamed for even having made the mistake of giving into fear from ( Read more... )

I wanna go back to CA and be around people that it would actually be healthy and productive for me to be around. People who can remind me of how I was and maybe assist me in getting back there ( Read more... )

so after a horrible night of tossing and turning, and waking up feeling bad energy all around me and trying for at least 2 hours to try to block it away... with only partial success... the other chick that's staying here on the couch tells me that the guy renting the place told her that she had to move out if she didn't sleep with him ( Read more... )

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hey universe - if you're going to let him win, please kill me ( Read more... )

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my soul is crying for freedom and his destruction, I want to let go of my anger and rage, and I want to pity his lack of intelligence without his energy trying to turn me around or influence me to feel or think differently.  That is my goal... to not be affected/practice detachment from people like him, to learn and to grow, to move past this.  I ( Read more... )

okay... just so I say it... out of some kind of sheer frustration and confusion - I've let this guy in to the point my energy is adjusting to his and it's harder to snap out of that with confidence.  That has to stop ( Read more... )

this is going to sound weird... but how do you punish someone whose reality is so different from your own ( Read more... )