My birthday is approaching... another year older. And what have I done? I've gotten lost. I always get lost. I fall in love and I forget what I've built. It's an obsession. Finding and holding on to this perfection that I seek. It's not going to happen. I'm on the peak of 19 and I'm ready to call it quits. This quest, this emptiness I feel because ( Read more... )

it hurts that you don't miss me like i miss you. and that things will never be the same. it hurts that he is your new best friend ( Read more... )

confident in who i am. i make mistakes and i don't think things through but i'm working on it. i keep forgetting to take my meds and i can feel myself declining. doug told me he has feelings for me. it's been a week now and it's finally starting to hit me. it hurts. it's scary and i feel like running so far away. adam is down my throat all the time ( Read more... )

it feels like forever ago and everything has changed.
i want it all to be over, and i want my best friend back. we couldn't live without eachother before. and now it's practically done by choice. this is senior year, we were supposed to be together until the end. i love you, i'm sorry.

hate my life a lot ( Read more... )

to come home.
and i'm mad that one of my good friends up here hung out with david.
it's a looooong ass fucking story that involves a lot of ranting, but basically i'm pissed and i think i should be. gahhhh

i just want to rewind to the begining of december '06
that's all i want.
why doesn't god grant fucking wishes?!?!!?!

i don't know if i'm supposed to wait or not,
he told me he wanted me too,
but he's also not answering any phone calls.

i don't like thissssssss

well i'm single,
and i feel like ass

i can't do it anymore.

it's not fair and i don't deserve it.
i'm not doing this anymore.

you broke it.
you're not who i thought you were and i'm sick of wasting my time.

i won't do it.

no matter what i do it's not fucking good enough ( Read more... )