I dreamed I was missing ( Read more... )

Hello my most beloved journal! The only one I've ever given a damn to keep up with(obviously not saying much)! Things are good, but I'm worried, school is coming to a close and I'm relatively on top of things. I'm happy for it really, graduating that is. I've finally come to a crossroads where I can drop off undesired burdens I've carried these ( Read more... )

Many months ago I posted of a "rut" or "chapter" of my life that had gone horribly wrong; and that I had hoped that it was merely a "transition" between two chapters. Well enough of the prologue ( Read more... )

Random Fact: I drew out my schedual today, on what I would like to do with myself if I were resposible and consistant with myself ( Read more... )

Today was very boring. I got up at 10 after to listening to music for a couple hours. After I had risen, I just layed down and listened to music for another few hours, ewwww. It was was an almost guiltless state of ennui cause I knew there was nothing to do(that I felt like) and there was nobody to hang out with. Everybody else seems to have a life ( Read more... )

I must say, I believe it is mainly due to my ambilical connection to an old fashioned favorite Rammstein; but I was feeling alittle low today, and after a talk with a great friend and a Rammstein album I felt like taking on the world again! Who gives a damn if their songs are of a basic melodic metal nature... they kick Ass! No matter what people ( Read more... )

I took a chinese horoscope test, this is the song that related to me, and sure enough its written by my rock idol. I see many interpretations, but I do wonder what it may have exactly been refering to. I planned on posting it some time ago, I'm obviously compulsivly posting so much other content on LJ... I ought to start again. Some people hate it ( Read more... )

My family got her when I was only two years old, thinking to myself she's been one of my few constants in my life next to my family and a couple friends. I don't have a single moment when she hasn't been around, until today. This morning at 8:30, Brandy was put to sleep. I didn't realize how hard it would be until it happened

Hah! Prom was a blast. Formal clothes kick ass, especially when they're black. If I go to Prom next year, I think I'll look into investing in a victorian era suit; The long jacket I wore this year got me thinking on those lines. We started the day with all of us meeting at the school, then road over to the Quarry. Unfortunatly, a troop of an ( Read more... )

Ever feel like you've gotten yourself stuck in transition between one segment of your life to another? Didn't think so, but I wanted to start this off with a question... Maybe its not a transition, but an awkward chapter. Sadly, it continues to become more prevelant towards the latter. It could be alot worse, but there is a feeling of emptiness I ( Read more... )