i really dont know what to feel right now... im really really confused... this guy is great amazing and sweet... he's gone through some shit but who hasnt? but see im kinda seeing some right now... then theirs this guy from forever ago that i havent really let all hope go yet either? but this new guy he's baffled me... quiet frankly amazes me... ( Read more... )

ugh have you ever been so mad that you start shaking and your stomach starts hurting and you feel like throwing up!? well i am... i swear im gonna scream... i love the double standard that kris puts on me... and im sick of it! im sick of falling for the bullshit... and im tired... we've talked and we're on good terms but god... he comes over ( Read more... )

so im scared... im not as strong as i make people think... im not as good or nice or mean or anything that people think i am... or that i let people believe... im not... im weak... but i wont tell anyone... i dont want someone seeing me cry... i dont want to be that person... but sometimes i need to too... sometimes i want to be the one that gets ( Read more... )

i did something i probably shouldnt have cause it wasnt very nice to him... oh well... nothing i can do about it now...

Why do i still care... i think i really did love him... i think that i really do care... i think i really cant let go... this sucks... i cant move on i cant get over it i cant honestly believe that what he promises and says will actually happen... because next year he'll be at purdue with tom and when tom is around he always thinks the way that tom ( Read more... )

my car is in the shop AGAIN!!... if it messes up one more time they have to give us all the money back and we can go get another car!!... Kris and I looked at A LOT of cars today... The Lancer and the Mazda 6 are the best/easiest sells on my mother... we looked at the scion Tc which is a cool car but the guy sucked at selling it to me that i said ( Read more... )

I dont know why but i just dont trust him... its not a good feeling to have and i think i need to talk to Jr or Tom again... they'll tell me what they think... and they know whats going on too...

basically my cars gonna be in the shop for "a while" starting Monday... yeah... jk... theres something screwy going on with the electrical stuff near the gas and brake pedals not something i want to screw around with... anyways... i have to go wash Kris' car tomorrow to make Jr's shit up to Kris... god... anyways... Jr pissed off Kris and i finally ( Read more... )

my hand is shaking right now because its been a weird 24 hours... basically zach calls then says he wanted me to go to the festival and now he wont go because im not... and im like woah you have bobby jo so go but no... anyways... then grab jr to talk because things are bugging me... go back to kris' house because thats where hes staying and talk ( Read more... )

Mountain Dew  (my all time favorite song!!!)

Chorus: Oh they call it that good ol' Mountain Dew

And them that refuse it are few

I'll hush up my mug

if you fill up my jug with that good ol' Mountain Dew

My Uncle Bill had a still on the hill

Turned out a gallon or two

And the buzzards in the sky god so high they could not fly

From the smell of that ( Read more... )