I can not feal enything i gues even when i see chiks i used to go out with or liked i kinda get deppresed because i t neve lasted for long exept 1 time wich was for almost 2 years and it was with older chik to what the hell how can that be .... I think i know it was maturity i gues because i just dont get girls my age there to cut up in school ( Read more... )

I was in such a big shitty mood that i could not get out of it i thought my manic depression was kiking in but for some reason it was not so i gues i was just to tierd and pissed of that i could not even think noramaly that was not good i thought to my self and when i even tried to staibilies myself i could not and one thing in my mind was to call ( Read more... )

Wow i am actualy working most of the time know i do not even have time for friends like Bri and i feal so fuckign bad that i just do know...

So life sucks and batter at the same time i think i am going on the right traks again so i am back i "conrol" i do not know what "control" is most of the time so i not talking about that ....

OK so this is it i do like soembody and her brother knows that hopefully he is not going to open his pie hole or i will close it for him if he does i gues am in love and this is sucks i need a brake from shit like that and there i go into the clouds again so i gues i will be ther for 2 month a least so there i go..............

I thought i would never feel again or have feelings for enyone but i was wrong. This is so weird i am usualy cnat feel a lot of things so now i am all fucking mushy and shit i wish it i shitty so there

This is just great i thought it was over and i am free nope i wish at was. I think it is just my feely and touchy side that always get me in this kinda shit. Yes my emotional side get me in a lot of this kinda shit. Wow i think i will leave for sometime and get my brains washed by mental institution. Yeah right you wish!!!. I hate that palce it is ( Read more... )

Life
and
Joy
Back
In
Me
Sadness
Gone
No
More
Hate
People
Do
not
Matter
No
more
Deppresion
Hate
and
Despair
Life
Is
Back
IN
Me
Joy
is
Back
In
My
Worhteless
Body
Im
OK

Me

Thanks god i got all of that shit behind i still got my gf to be there for me and somebosy did fucked up wich was mostly me fuck i hated that so bad i wish i never heard about that conversation between Kyla and her. God i am done.

Hell is a proud place.
Life pointless no more life like this.
Depressed and pointless life no more feelings.
Pain is the only cure for my self.

Blood dripping from my hand pain is my release.
Blood the only cure from suffering and gateway to hate.
Hate is the only feeling that matters.
Life is hell.

Game of my mind
never end.Life daying
and killing by mine imagination.
Hate in me no more good life.

Hate is my sever no understanding
No life No soul No more nothing in
Me No life that maters no friends
that there for ever no people no hope
of survival life no understanding of
what i am.