yeah, i'm going to be finding out something that can change my life pretty soon. the sooner the better, but im sick and i cant really go anywhere because its raining and im sick, and yeah, get the point ( Read more... )

im sorry, i can't be perfect.

even though i try, i just can't.

why the fuck does this always happen to me? I feel so bad about myself, because of someone else. Like he said, I'm just "fucking stupid".

okey, i need to find another job. all i have been doing is working for the magazine i work for, i only make comission, eating in and out, smokin grits, drinking like a fish and chilling with jon. i've seen mike a couple times, we hooked up again, but ahh im not sure what his intintions are. we are "seeing" each other so yeah, i guess i still ( Read more... )

yeah. im an idiot. i am in love with someone who doesn't love me. we are "seeing other people". yeah, i don't know. ive been drinking way too much because of this. i will not cry though.

arrowfest last night fuckin rocked. i got to see styx, aero speed wagon, 38 special, steppinwolf and boston. fuck yeah. tons of guys hitting on me 2, they were drunk so yeah.

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yes, i went to the queen mary last night with some homies and partied it up to the sounds of doc martin and electric skychurch. omar santana sucked ass, which i dont like him anyways, but still he made me cringe. saw some homies, drank out of other peoples drinks haha and had a great time. i took tons of pics n shit too. Ill post up pics later.

okey, i have some new friends. haha they are the coolest and they rock hardore. i guess good things come from the bad. ahh im tiered. been drinking a little too much.

im not pissed, but i am in a way. girls are hitting on mike like it isn't hurting anything...but it hurts me. i have a feeling he wishes he was single. noone will ever love him like i love him, though...i have never cheated...nor do i plan on it, he wants me to do something i do it. i unno...its early, and im tiered ( Read more... )

im bored! yes i am! ahh, im bored im bored. i want to go get something to eat right now...maybe i will. mmm, del taco maybe...maybe angelo's where i work haha.