when i was young, my mother told me that my grandfather died in his sleep. they called out to him for breakfast that morning but he did not show. my grandmother sent my mother to try and wake him but he did not. frantic, they did everything they could; from shaking him relentlessly to biting his toe but he was gone ( Read more... )

last year ( Read more... )

we are but leaves in all of this. as the seasons come, our colors change from greener times to a final burst of sun burnt colors. still holding our shape, but not quite the same. and at some point turning towards some great fall, a great departure from the eternal ( Read more... )

the five stages of grief are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. this was a recurring message this week brought about by the departure of a colleague, a mentor. his decision to leave has set off a cascade of change and everyone around me seems to have been stricken by their emotions ( Read more... )

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there are many things that drive us in life. whether it's working to make sure there is food on the table, fighting to be the center of attention, or reading through the night for tomorrow's exam, we are driven individuals. these precious habits that we nurture are motivated by some factor. and for some, it's influenced by a need to fill some great ( Read more... )

when i was young and when it was time to sleep, the turning off of lights signified an onslaught of imagined terrors. as the room shifted from being something familiar to haunting figures of night, i fell into a great unease. the darkness would become something greater, something monstrous, and i would be forced to take refuge under my sheets only ( Read more... )

lately, things have been alarmingly good. events, encounters, and engagements, for lack of better words, have just been good...almost too good ( Read more... )

i used to be one of the most honest people you'd meet but these days not so much. there's just a certain comfort in lying to someone that keeps things in order. and maybe not revealing everything in its entirety makes situations a little less complex. tweaking words, not twisting or distorting them, but manipulating them just enough truly is the ( Read more... )

my friends and people that i grew up with have graduated, are getting married, and are starting families. and i can't help but feel like i'm so behind on all that. for the longest time, i have this compelling need to procreate and, lately, the sense of urgency has been immense. the objective side to me wants to say it's all purely biological, since ( Read more... )