was sitting at home saturday during the day and this thought popped into my head: Why the hell do I have to be the best friend I possibly can be? Is there any reason I can't be like everyone else and not care, or use people for whatever I need then just drop them when I don't need them anymore? I'm tired of everyone, fuck off.

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My brother made me listen to a new band today; most of their stuff was crap but this one song really caught me by surprise. It's time to dance by Panic at the Disco. It's got some weird stuff but the line "when I say shotgun, you say wedding. Shotgun wedding, shotgun wedding." really clicked with me ( Read more... )

bored.

Recently my buddy Greg's dad died, and I was invited to go to the funeral. This may sound selfish but it reminded me of my dad's funeral, and it brought back a whole laundry list of feelings that I was willing to forget. I don't feel like going more into depths on the situation ( Read more... )

not gonna post for a bit, no point.

Couple of nice things happened this weekend. That hottie Clair added me to her MSN list which was good; im getting the impression that she would never be interested in me but I'm not too concerned, ive been single for a long time, whats another couple months; OMFG SHOOT ME NOW. Angie and Chris both called me and it seems we may be doing stuff in ( Read more... )

I'm tired. Midterm week and i've been going nuts with all these tests. One of my better friends in my class just broke up with her boyfriend, I should be sad for her or something right? I'm not, she deserves better, shes such an awesome girl and amazingly beautiful as well; far too good for me, but I wish I could help her out somehow. In other news ( Read more... )

I'm sick. My throat hurts when i talk, or breath. I don't want to get out of bed. I havn't gone out in a while. Last time the chick that I like was too drunk to remember me being there. All of my friends are ignoring me again like i'm some sort of burden on their lives. The only brightside to my life currently is that im doing well in school, my ( Read more... )

Anyways, school is starting to catch up to me, i have my first project due next week and i've got 5-6 hrs of homework everynight. I'm still doing well thought, got my first few assignments today, A+ and B+ which makes me smile. That big party the 2n year students are throwing for us is coming on the 4th, and it sounds like a whole bunch of awesome ( Read more... )