I have the same antsy feeling. I've never intended to stay here long, so it's not as though I'm wondering why I want to leave, but I definitely have the feeling of needing to get moving.
That and I love moving and living in lots of different places. Besides the fact that I want to actually get a career relevant job/program, I simply get stagnant being in one place for too long.
Yeah. It's just sort of a weird feeling for me because up until I moved to Seattle I'd spent my entire life in Minneapolis and if you'd asked me a few years ago, I'd have probably said that I wanted to stay in Minneapolis but it's absolutely not the case anymore.
But it really does boil down to the whole "I want to do the things that I went to school for, I want to get myself back on the relevant track" and such. The in-between waiting time is just such a hassle though. :/
I was only nervous when going to live in Japan, but when it didn't cause any problems at all it only cemented my 'wandering' nature, I guess.
Yeah. I keep going I NEED TO APPLY TO PROGRAMS but man applying to things is such a long process. And then they usually have requirements that you'll have to meet in other ways.
I wasn't even really that nervous for my Japan trip, though I can't exactly pinpoint what solidified my need to pick up and move. Though yeah, I've always loved to travel.
You should do iit. Fight win, apply for stuff! Processes are a mess but if you get in then hey, fuck yeah!
Well, the good news is I scored an interview doing exactly what I want to do. The bad news is it's a summer job only. But it's experience, and it pays well.
I just need to make up my mind on what to do about Air Force. And how I want to approach grad school. Do I want to go for a masters in my degree, or do I want to go for a Law Degree? Etc.
Well paying experience is always a plus. And you never know, there could be an opportunity for conversion? And at least you'll be making connections.
Haha, and there's also places that'll allow you to do both, so that's just a whole other can of worms. I'd say just start poking around and looking, see if there's any programs that really ping you. That's how I got my list of places I'm looking at for my Ph.D.
Oh, jobs. Oh, jobs! I work as a waitress now, and it stresses me out sometimes, but I enjoy it because I get to do work. Seriously, all my jobs would set me to task on something to do, so I never got to sit around laze. So, I dig you on the wanting to do something. I can't comprehend being able to surf the net at work. |D
AND YOU ARE TALKING TO ME ABOUT WRITING THINGS. I am a severe putz when it comes to actually writing anything, but I love to watch people in their creative process. Like, I tend to sit on Spence/Livio's shoulder and just gab about her stuff all the time. You should link me something that you've written, so I can see if our tastes/vibes mesh or what have you. I would love to bounce ideas around with another person. ♥
And, you know what's up with my general plan, so if you need a roommate or what have you, hit me up. Though, I really hope you get into JET more, because that is way too cool.
secretly I have always wanted to try being a waitress. It seems like it would be fun on the days it doesn't suck monkeydick. But I guess that much is true of any job.
I CAN TALK TO YOU ABOUT WRITING THINGS, OKAY. And my fic journal is at inkswell not that I pimp it out or anything. But. Yes, I need to talk to people about things.
I will keep it in mind. o7 But yeah, fingers are still crossed for JET.
Well, I'm learning about dealing with stress and so on. I'm already great with people. And. . . The money is actually really good. I'm at a local spot that always gets a lot of reoccurring traffic, though. So, I'm not sure about anywhere else. On the traffic, there is a little girl I get to see every Sat/Sun, and she is the light of my liiife. ♥
Alright, I'll skim it over and get back to you! o7
Uho, that's pretty awesome. My problem is most places ask for experience and I have zero food service experience. I spent the entirety of my high school days in retail and my college years in customer service. But eh, we'll see what happens.
I'm just at such a creative stopping block that I don't know. I want to talk to my ideas but I can't grow the damn balls to just message someone and go "HEY CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS IDEA?" because I feel like my ideas are inferior and I don't feel like people want to talk about them and I FEEL LIKE A WIMP FOR THIS and it's frustrating.
Preach it. Been at that creative block for something like SIX YEARS, and now that my Muses are talking again, I'm all pussyfooted and "this will suck, I can't show anyone this," regardless of the fact that half a dozen people have said "Suck or not, show me it!" I can't even message Snicks, and I've known her for EIGHT YEARS. A complex, I has it. --;;
It's just this whole eager energy type thing that I've got and I just can't stay still I just want to pack up and move and move on and start moving forward with my life.This. I spent YEARS playing to everyone's expectations and derailing my dreams, and now I've gotten back in the driver's seat, I'm terrified of how many choices there are, how many
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Yeah, I think admitting to the complex is one of the first steps because now that I've said what my problem is and pinpointed it, I'm more comfortable going to people and being all. "HI you remember that problem and how you said you'd help me with it?" instead of just bringing things up out of the blue.
My mom has said that's always been one of my defining characteristics. I have plans and even if I don't always stick to them, I always have backup plans up the wazoo so I'm rarely left with absolutely no idea where I'm going. It's a blessing and a curse in a lot of ways, really, because plans don't always pull through.
I am fabulous at helping other people come up with plans, and if you want a social event, trip, or class schedule planned (with Backup Plans B through G), I'm your girl. Sadly, this does not spill over into my personal life. GRUMPH. This "adrift" feeling does not sit right with me.
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That and I love moving and living in lots of different places. Besides the fact that I want to actually get a career relevant job/program, I simply get stagnant being in one place for too long.
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But it really does boil down to the whole "I want to do the things that I went to school for, I want to get myself back on the relevant track" and such. The in-between waiting time is just such a hassle though. :/
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Yeah. I keep going I NEED TO APPLY TO PROGRAMS but man applying to things is such a long process. And then they usually have requirements that you'll have to meet in other ways.
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You should do iit. Fight win, apply for stuff! Processes are a mess but if you get in then hey, fuck yeah!
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I just need to make up my mind on what to do about Air Force. And how I want to approach grad school. Do I want to go for a masters in my degree, or do I want to go for a Law Degree? Etc.
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Haha, and there's also places that'll allow you to do both, so that's just a whole other can of worms. I'd say just start poking around and looking, see if there's any programs that really ping you. That's how I got my list of places I'm looking at for my Ph.D.
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AND YOU ARE TALKING TO ME ABOUT WRITING THINGS. I am a severe putz when it comes to actually writing anything, but I love to watch people in their creative process. Like, I tend to sit on Spence/Livio's shoulder and just gab about her stuff all the time. You should link me something that you've written, so I can see if our tastes/vibes mesh or what have you. I would love to bounce ideas around with another person. ♥
And, you know what's up with my general plan, so if you need a roommate or what have you, hit me up. Though, I really hope you get into JET more, because that is way too cool.
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I CAN TALK TO YOU ABOUT WRITING THINGS, OKAY. And my fic journal is at inkswell not that I pimp it out or anything. But. Yes, I need to talk to people about things.
I will keep it in mind. o7 But yeah, fingers are still crossed for JET.
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Alright, I'll skim it over and get back to you! o7
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Preach it. Been at that creative block for something like SIX YEARS, and now that my Muses are talking again, I'm all pussyfooted and "this will suck, I can't show anyone this," regardless of the fact that half a dozen people have said "Suck or not, show me it!" I can't even message Snicks, and I've known her for EIGHT YEARS. A complex, I has it. --;;
It's just this whole eager energy type thing that I've got and I just can't stay still I just want to pack up and move and move on and start moving forward with my life.This. I spent YEARS playing to everyone's expectations and derailing my dreams, and now I've gotten back in the driver's seat, I'm terrified of how many choices there are, how many ( ... )
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My mom has said that's always been one of my defining characteristics. I have plans and even if I don't always stick to them, I always have backup plans up the wazoo so I'm rarely left with absolutely no idea where I'm going. It's a blessing and a curse in a lot of ways, really, because plans don't always pull through.
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AngelVixen :-)
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