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[vulnerablelove]

FYI: our internet is dumb and we only have one computer hooked at a time, meaning, I'm not going to spend the time reading LJ  when I don't have the time. So, until you all see both M and I on AIM at the same time, if you want me to know what you're posting, email me

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[saulittlesister]

I wish I had answers for you, friend. And I hope you find them in God's timing even if that leads you away from me for a season. It is possible that He doesn't want you here after this semester. He told me that next year I will feel the ache of being led elseware soon, so that when it comes time to leave, I will want to. I have seen this in so many people on campus... maybe it's just hitting you early, or maybe you'll be leaving early... or maybe it's not that at all. I don't know, but I do know that my heart hurts for you and I want to do what I can. I wish I was home to you. ~M

[vulnerablelove]

i love you. so much. what you have to offer me is more than enough.

[god_whispers]

That's strange to hear you say that the arbor isn't home anymore. I guess I would have to ask you, what made it home in the first place? Because you got a long with some people and made some new friends? or was it something else? Even if it isn't home anymore it's where you are. God doesn't call us to our 'home' all of the time or even most of the time. In the old test. he most of the time called people away from their 'homes'. But since God was with those people where they went, they were home.

[vulnerablelove]

what made it home was that I found here something that was missing everywhere else. I found a level of realness, of intimacy, of community with God and His people that I didn't know anywhere else. God awakened parts of my heart here that had been closed off or that I was too scared to open because I was living by the experience that says that I'm not safe. I found safety, love, comfort, joy, peace, truth, hope...so many things that I hadn't known in this way before. There was so much MORE here. and now...something's...missing. I don't know how else to describe it

[kwackin]

I know the feeling, Sweetheart. You're not in this alone.

People say that you'll never feel at home on earth when you're a citizen of Heaven, and there's definitely truth to that. But it's also true that, since the resurrection, the Heavenly Kingdom is coming here. (It's here, but not fully here.) Since we're praying for His Kingdom to come, it's certainly not wrong to look for home on earth. Home is anywhere we truly meet with God. And it brings my heart joy to know that you meet with God so profoundly in me. It kind of blows me away, actually.

And i know this is a mini-teaching and not really what you need, but i wanted to let you know that i'm praying that we'll all use times like this to draw closer to God and thus draw closer to our chothers even when we're not physically together. I pray that we seek first the Kingdom.

I love you.