Wanting to keep going is tough, especially when you've been metaphorically kicked in the teeth/nuts as often as you have. There's no real need to fake enthusiasm for wanting another kick and continuing to plod on in the same way - but perhaps a change in direction might help. It might get the kickers out of range, for example.
If you keep getting kicked by the military/military chicks, why not write them off and try a different scene? (If you're being observant, you may notice that there's a possible connection between this advice and my repeated urgings that you run away to college and get out of the Army.)
You may not believe your friends when we say that you're basically a good guy, but if you weren't, you would be a lot more likely to use your planned shots and we wouldn't stick around. Then you'd have a self-perpetuating problem of feeling alone & hating the world for it & lashing out as a result.
I've come to terms that there will always be that part of you that wants to shove the knife into my gut as deep as you possibly can, and then turn it. Said shot is probably not something that would have surprised me terribly, either.
Actually, I very much doubt said part of me will be around much longer. I asked you a question recently that I've always been either too angry, too proud, or too afraid to ask. And the answer wasn't what I thought it would be.
And you shouldn't have to come to terms with something like that. If that's what you think or believe, just let me go, and do something better with your time than listening to me.
That's a bit endearing to know. No, really, I'm serious.
Also I knew it wasn't so much of a true hatred, but it made things between us a little easier for you to cope with. Oddly enough, I don't hold it against you. I also don't really consider you a waste of time, though sometimes you do make it a bit hard to like you. Then again, I believe that's your intention from time to time. You're just a pain in the ass sometimes, but it comes with the territory, so I don't mind.
Yes, the question I referenced was indeed 'Why'. A lot of the biterness stemmed from being used and discarded. Especially since it keeps happening to me.
And yeah, I know I'm a royal pain sometimes. Makes me wonder why you put up with me :-p
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If you keep getting kicked by the military/military chicks, why not write them off and try a different scene? (If you're being observant, you may notice that there's a possible connection between this advice and my repeated urgings that you run away to college and get out of the Army.)
You may not believe your friends when we say that you're basically a good guy, but if you weren't, you would be a lot more likely to use your planned shots and we wouldn't stick around. Then you'd have a self-perpetuating problem of feeling alone & hating the world for it & lashing out as a result.
But for the record, I've never called you hot. ;)
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And you shouldn't have to come to terms with something like that. If that's what you think or believe, just let me go, and do something better with your time than listening to me.
For what it's worth, I'm sorry about that
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Also I knew it wasn't so much of a true hatred, but it made things between us a little easier for you to cope with. Oddly enough, I don't hold it against you. I also don't really consider you a waste of time, though sometimes you do make it a bit hard to like you. Then again, I believe that's your intention from time to time. You're just a pain in the ass sometimes, but it comes with the territory, so I don't mind.
I'm assuming the question was that of "why"?
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And yeah, I know I'm a royal pain sometimes. Makes me wonder why you put up with me :-p
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