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Woozy
There's a constant flipping around in my stomach. It's not bad. It's just this... excitement ( Read more... ) -
TMI
There is a hand on my chest, squeezing.
Yesterday she looked me in the eye, she made sure she was close, and she said, "You are special."
I looked away. It's hard to look at someone when they say something like that. "No, I'm not." It's the only defense I had at that point. To say no. I've never been good at compliments. And... that's a hard one ( Read more... ) -
Yes, I'm still talking about that
Yesterday, I talked about my brother. It was the hardest session yet.
Let me tell you about my child molesting father. Cake. Let me tell you about my abusive mother. Mostly easy cheesy. Nudge me toward admitting that my brother is a bit of a dick. That one was hard. Hard. Hard.
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File Shredding
I have a problem with new things. They're very hard for me. Which sucks since it's at odds with the part of me that loves new things. And I do LOVE new places, experiences, people. They're just hard. Hard to start.
When I first moved to Connecticut, everything was new. Everything. So if I didn't find a way to deal with that I was going to collapse ( Read more... ) -
Survivor's Guilt
I'm about to do something something nauseatingly self absorbed. I am going to blog about my therapy.
Two weeks ago I had my first visit to a psychologist. I picked a psychologist over a psychiatrist for a several reasons, most of them centered around the idea that I did not want drugs to be a first resort. I understand that somethings require ( Read more... ) -
Ah, Sassy...
I've been looking through way too many fashion shots lately. Don't ask. But with each contorted, awkward pose... I thought of Sassy magazine (Ah Jane, you were awesome.) and a short little tid bit they did once. And through the magic of the internet, I can relive being 14 again.
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It's Odd
When I was young, living in the middle of nowhere, exposed to nothing, this how I imagined them. Wearing sheath dresses and expensive heeled boots. Stylish little hair cuts and just so jewelry. Speaking casually of attending the same wedding as the Vice President of the US ( Read more... ) -
This Modern Life
I mean really, can you even call it a game of D&D if there isn't tea and quiche? -
The Judybats
The Judybats falls into that category of music I listened to just as I was discovering there was something out there other than country and pop. I wasn't yet to the stage where I'd spend my lunch debating bass players with Mark... Mark... omg.. what was his last name.
Anyway, I was searching for random one hit wonders on youtube, when I remembered ( Read more... )
