I havent posted on here in a while and i feel so terrible about it but I've had a lot of stuff to od! I sweat to god i will post more fics up really soon! I'm like working on 3! Please be patient!

So what I should be doing is working on my paper for Survey but i just cant find myself doing it right now. i want to do well in school but right now i just dont care. Like i wish there was more for me then sitting and writing paper after paprer. its gets old and i'm sick of this. i want to do something that i want but what it is, i dont know.

I havent posted or a while because, well, there's no need. I have nothing going on besides everything. Everyone is leaving and I really dont care, in fact, I'm showing them to the door. I'm not all sad and tearful that I'm losing friends, i dont care. I'm actually ok. i dont need anyone, I'll just od my own thing and when i want friends then I'l ( Read more... )

I'm thinking of things that normal kids shouldnt think about. This isnt right. it's thinking one unhealthy things to another but i cant stop. I'm not depressed by this thinking but i know it's wrong and i know it's sick but i cant stop it. Just like i couldnt stop thinking about her.is there no end to this madness ( Read more... )

She's like an ddiction...i just cant stop. That's the only reason why i work so hard because in the end i really dont care about anything, i mean it varys but i want to just work hard...for her. Ya know? and i cant stop, I've tried, no one even understands how hard I've tried but I just cant quit her. I cant ( Read more... )

Well nothing really has been happening since I last posted....i mean it's offical, we HAVE to move. But other than that it's been pretty boring around here. Writing potery, working on school shizzz and just doing whatever.
Ihave a newfound obession with Brian and Zacky for A7X, they're totally a couple I mean just look at them.

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I just...dont know what to do, we might get kicked out of our house (it's getting forecolsed on) and i just dont know where I'm going to go and if I'll even be in the same school. My mom says she wants to keep us with all of our friends but I could really care less about that. I just want to keep my dogs and though she drives me off the deep end... ( Read more... )

Ugh. Nothing much has been going on and I havent really done anything at all...but not only am I being a lazy ass, I've come to relize that I really want my lip perirced. Like really bad. I think I'm gonig to do that for my birthday...Yes, it will look hot. :D EHHH!!! I want percings really bad!!!

Yet, again, I'm played for a fool. Sure it bothers me and I dont know why i keep doing this to myself. I've run out of excuses and I'm running out of patience. I cant take being fucked with. I'm losing ym friends and nothing intrests me anymore. Nothing. The one person that could jumpstart my heart isnt with me so I'll have to dealwith being like a ( Read more... )

So...this is intersting....this morning I looked in my email mailbx thingy and low and behold there was an emial from her. I was expecting myself to be mad but i was really just suprised and I still believe I've drempt it all, so I saved i on my computer, just for evidence. And if i doubt myself then to read the email. She seemed sensire and...I ( Read more... )