Day 1 of getting skinny was a complete fail with no exercise and a bit of a binge :'(

Therefore tomorrow, 01-08-13 shall be my new day 1 :D
LET'S GET ON THIS!

Ella x

I've been with my boyfriend for 4 1/2 months. I think he's going to break up with me. He's been avoiding me all weekend, and weekends are when we get to see each other. So, yeah, I'm screwed.

Need to get skinny so he'll want me again!!

peace,
ella x

 I'm such a dick!!
People shouldn't make friends with me, I just ruin everything.

 I shouldn't be here. This isn't good for  me. And yet here I am.. Again..
Let's see how long I last this time..
Useless. 
Ah well, still want to change so I'll try again.

Come on Ella. 
Focus.
Get motivated and get sorted.

Think thin ~ think thin ~ think thin

 Well here I am again, with a new year, claiming a fresh start ( Read more... )

I'm wondering how many times I'm going to tell myself, "it's ok, just try again tomorrow, it's a new day" before I actually do try and succeed, and actually do something useful.

 I'm so not having a good day :(
Sucks :(

Hello Ladies. How I've missed you!!
Ok, a lot of stuff has gone on and so  I haven't been on here in ages!

Two weeks ago my boyfriend of 2years 4months broke up with me. So I did the whole comfort eating thing to make me feel better. And low and behold it got me fat. But now I'm back. I need to change. I need to be thin. That's why he doesn't love me ( Read more... )

So last night I was so close to killing myself...  "/
Scared me a little.
Then this morning I get on the scales, 4 pound heavier that last Sunday  :'[

I just feel like crawling up into a ball, falling asleep, and never having to wake up...