am i upset? yeah. am i crying over it? no.

i think this is one of those prolonged break ups i'm really good at. playing the "in the door, out the door" game with myself, and the door frame being this thing that i swore was a relationship but wasn't.

i mean that's what relationships are about right? learning from the experiences you go through? you' ( Read more... )

i was walking around the bookstore the other day with my sister and although i had a list of books in my head that i was looking forward to skimming and contemplating on purchase, i usually do this impulsive buy thing. i honestly believe that if you think about things too much sometimes, you miss out on a good thing by weighing out the pros and con ( Read more... )

jodi and i have some interesting life conversations when she gets home early. it makes me think a lot sometimes about how similar we are sometimes and how if i dont take different paths, i could end up like her one day. jaded, pessimistic and really angry and resentful on the inside. i love the woman i do. she is utterly sweet but once you shed it ( Read more... )

i always imagined myself as one of those people in the movies, you know those really cool 20 something year olds that had their own apartment and just did whatever they wanted to do, somehow surviving with these jobs that literally looked like it only took up 1/3 of their day and then all the juicy stuff that would happen in between (hook ups, ( Read more... )

my junior year english teacher always asked us that whenever we would make a comment about a book, quote, anything. "so what?" it kind of built a lot of solid foundation now that i think about it. 5 years later i think i know what she was talking about. when people talk, i wonder if they ever ask themselves this same question. why am i even opening ( Read more... )

people want you to think falling in love is some beautiful thing and all that bullshit. but you know, at the end of day its all about what you want to achieve out of this falling in love business. what defines love and the process of falling into it exactly? cause im pretty sure my thoughts on love are completely different from the six people i ( Read more... )

owning up to your faults is probably the hardest thing to do. i mean picking and criticizing people on the other hand, is probably one of the easiest things to do. strange how that is ( Read more... )

i was wrong. i am still capable of learning. it's called: accepting other people regardless of what you think of their stereotype. no matter how much it hurts me to admit this, angelo is finally making his way around into my life again, the only person i've forgiven repeatedly and then wondered why i did and now i resent him. i guess that's what ( Read more... )

i feel like i havent been myself in a while. i havent had these deep thoughts. really i've mostly felt a lot of blank space and emptiness. i guess you could say he fills my life with a lot of things so then i feel like an empty shell but it kind of sounds mean when you put it that way. we compliment each other in a lot of ways actually. and there's ( Read more... )

sometimes i stare at myself in the mirror and wonder what kind of person i have become due to the messes i create. somewhere deep inside i see this girl who kind of got lost in the way of life. she's desperately seeking someone to save her but fails to realize she needs to help herself and not rely on others to do it for her. she needs to find this ( Read more... )