had i known being a nurse involved crying after every block i worked... i would have prepped my room for a lot more towels to shed those tears of my naive hopes and dreams. ha ( Read more... )

2013 you are starting off quite interesting. hopeful but interesting ( Read more... )

i think im finally hitting a low point. its one of those moments where you can see yourself saying all the wrong things, doing awkward things and just not really furthering yourself thats in any way benefical whatsoever. the question is, how do you get out of the little rut? ignore it and move along? over analyze and meticulously change every ( Read more... )

im not sure if its the books that im reading or just this inherent feeling or hell maybe its just the stowed away romantic in me - but flipping through old pictures and remembering how it was to feel happiness through likes and loves gives me this gut wrenching pit in my stomach. im not exactly sure if its good or bad though. it is sort of what it ( Read more... )

every now and then i get these moments alone where things just sort of hit me. kind of like a brick hurdling towards my face but hits me in the stomach instead and knocks the wind out of me. more often than not, its usually listening to some kelly clarkson or adele song, but what can you do. and its always the same question that runs through my ( Read more... )

i think about you a lot. its not one of my favorite things to admit, but i do. i replay it over and over again in my head, wondering what i could have done to not be in this position right now. thinking about you, regretting and wondering things. so this is what i've come up with ( Read more... )

where do i begin to express my frustration and my bitterness? first and foremost, i'm not blaming you for my misjudgements and poor decision making. that was entirely my fault. i should have never trusted someone as decietful, manipulative and self centered as you ( Read more... )

someone asked me if i could vision my wedding out to the tee like how all the bridal shows do it you know? and honestly, its hard for me to envision my wedding without a vision of who i'm getting married to because to be honest, i dont like to escape into dream lands with someone who doesn't exist. maybe when i was a preteen i occasionally launched ( Read more... )

 i was having dinner with my girlfriends one night and the question going around was 'what is your biggest regret'? and for some reason, without hesitation, i said you were.

when i explained it, i just sounded so resentful, so hurt and so bitter. but where were these emotions coming from? these feelings dont just come out of nowhere land of ( Read more... )

 “We were going to be different. We would keep the fire stoked; best friends who fucked each other senseless every night. We would avoid the pitfalls of complacency; stay young at heart and in shape, keep our kisses long and deep and our bellies flat, hold hands when we walked, conduct whispered conversations deep into the night, make out in movie ( Read more... )