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It's been over six months since I left him! While I am excited at how quickly this time has flown by it still doesn't mean that it was easy or will be easy. I still feel the exact same way I did when I left that I made the right decision. I have never once doubted my choice to leave. But that doesn't stop me from missing him so much.
What I miss ( Read more... ) -
Memories
Today has been harder than most. it seemed that everything that reminds me of him was happening. I still believe that I am truly happier and better off but I can't help but still miss him. I feel like I'm still in the in a relationship mindset. Maybe that's why I felt guilty about Garrison. tomorrow will be better though. I won't think about him. I ( Read more... ) -
The Break Up
Four weeks ago yesterday my relationship with Brit was officially ended. While I do miss him I have no doubt that I made the right decision. Even with the grief of losing a best friend and a family I am happier than I have ever been in my whole life. I know that what I did was right for me. That is what is important above all is to do what is ( Read more... ) -
So sure about my future.
12-17-08
I know for a fact that I am going t spend the rest of my life with Brit. He's so incredible and just amazing. I know he'll take care or me and be there for me. He makes me so unbelievely happy. It seems dumb to think your going to marry your first boyfriend and maybe I am naive but I feel like this is it, like there is no possible way ( Read more... ) -
Feelings for Greg
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20th Birthday
7/5/11
Our relationship has been going terrific and for some reason summer has brought out the romance. For my birthday (20th) Brit took me out to dinner at Steak Inn and we watched the storm roll in at the scenic over look. It just all seemed so perfect. He had been acting strange and so sweet. Even though it really isn't practical I was hoping ( Read more... ) -
Decision about College
December 2010
After almost a full year of thinking about it I luckily came to a conclusion that will be best for both of us. I think going to Kansas City is going to be really good for me. While Drury is a great school Park will fit my needs much better and allow me to live on campus and just live in general. Not having a "long distance" ( Read more... ) -
Questioning the Move
Journal Entry 11/10/11
Deciding whether or not to transfer schools to be with Brit.
When is the point that it becomes to much? How far can you go for love. With true love you should never have to question this. I sit here asking myself this wondering about whether it's worth it following Brit. The problem is that I'm scared I'm going to follow ( Read more... ) -
Letter to Myself
Wow. It's incredible to look back on the Hayley of just a few years ago. I have changed so much in so many ways. I think I've also lost my drive to question everything about the world. I want to get that back. But most of all I think I have learned. Four years ago I hadn't even had a glimpse of the world. Now, though I still have so much more to ( Read more... ) -
I'm an ant. Please don't step on me.
There are about 6,602,224,175 people in the world as of July 07.
Out of those 6 trillion people how are we expected to find that one individual that completes us?
And on top of that at the right time.
Sometimes it feels like we all just settle because we're sick of searching. Not that the person we settled ( Read more... )