http://12shoesfor12lovers.com/ :: This appeals to me for multiple reasons- first and foremost, shoes, the original models were 3D PRINTED, and I spend a lot of time romanticizing past relationships and flings. I don't particularly find any of the shoes to be incredible, but I enjoy the ( Read more... )

i start so many entries, i delete so many entries. nothing ever feels good enough- written, typed, public, private. everything feels like shit. the past week has been incredibly stressful. i need the holiday season to be over1. my job is to manage the store. i am good at that. i am good at talking people into buying things they don't need2 ( Read more... )

remember a time where i couldn't imagine not actively using livejournal. i thought it would be around forever. my life is much different. like, i am a normal person. i do normal, responsible, adult things. i actually pay my rent. i am not plagued with anxiety, ever. i don't break shit when i'm angry anymore. i don't get black out drunk and ( Read more... )

smoking on the porch a few minutes ago-- can hear a drunk couple making their way down the block ( Read more... )

lots of wonderful things are happening: david's done his final defense- my man's gonna be a doctor! of course he doesn't graduate until december, and he's got a lot of editing and rewriting to do before then, but i'm so proud of him! the new semester starts in a week and he's teaching two classes! and getting paid for them ( Read more... )

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i am older than ever and my hair is longer than ever. purple, too. i'm learning to cope with all of my negative emotions in healthier ways and making an earnest attempt at being a good person. i am becoming more mindful of my actions-- everything i say, do, and consume ( Read more... )

you know what it feels like when you look down at your body and realize that you have arms and legs and a head and you fucking HATE that fact and you can feel strange shit moving around in your limbs and it HURTS like hell and then you contemplate the easiest and most efficient way to dismember yourself but get pissed off when you realize that it ( Read more... )

for a while, this city was everything i needed it to be. but now, the mountains, the dirt, the adobe- it all seems so foreign now. i'm moving to pennsylvania soon-- i'm ready to go back east.

i don't know why i do the things i do. like right now, i'm sitting here chewing my nails down as far as possible-- they're not bleeding yet, but they will be soon, and waiting for some boy from chicago to come over. it's nearly 3:30 and i just met him tonight. i know what he wants and what he expects. i'll play coy for a while, you know, and i' ( Read more... )