"Not right now. It's not the right time. We don't have enough down time. But I don't want to close the door. I want the possibility to still be there. So not now... but later."

Those are some of the greatest words I've ever heard.

It's hard to deal with. I must say. To have the one (or the few) thing I've ever whole-heartedly wanted be the thing(s) that will turn me down. That could potentially be the things I can't have. It has left me hoping. Hoping that this is just my pessimistic nature showing through. Hoping I'm missing some crucial cue that would tip me in the ( Read more... )

"Fourteen days now since we started to complicate the situation..."

"Imagine for a moment that God is walking softly beside you. You sense his presence, feel his warm breath. He says, 'Tell me your sorrows.' What would you say in reply?"

I'll never get enough of this song.

"Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late."

Tomorrow could potentially be the best day of my life...

Tonight... I got in touch with my inner Irishman. No, not the drinking one. The one that gets red in the face and wants to tear anything that moves limb from limb... and then drink. I'm angry... and someone's going to have to pay for it.

tonight was a great night. just great. absolutely great. now we just have to see how well I can do the next portion.

Uh... I don't know if I can do this... I've wanted to for... well, a pretty ridiculous amount of time... but it still... I just don't know... nothing has ever scared me more in my life...

Okay, so I figured I'd post a real update on me ( Read more... )