Tuesday.

The Penn is having a staff mixer type thing Thursday. Ricky works but he said he might come after work. I hope he does, if he's not too tired, because I hate being at parties without him now. Everything that happens at a party always makes me think, wow, I wish Ricky could've seen that, or, Ricky would've loved this! Then I always just sit ( Read more... )

Thursday.

As usual I'm running on insufficient sleep and food...and yet I'm awake and not eating. Maybe I've learned to enjoy being hungry and tired, haha, how morbid. Actually, I'm talking to Ricky. Our phone conversation failed because he sounded tired/unhappy and that always scares me into acting the same, whether he's actually tired and unhappy ( Read more... )

Monday.
I'm skipping class right now. I'm in my office at The Penn hoping no one catches me using the computer for personal use...but it's not my office hours, so why shouldn't I? Maybe I shouldn't skip class so much but this semester is so hard and I told my parents (mainly my Mom, Dad only gets involved in extreme situations...not that that's a ( Read more... )

Sunday.

Yesterday reminded me of how great life could be. I love Ricky and spending time with him is amazing. I bought him yellow boots yesterday! I can't ever describe them, I'll post a picture soon, they're amazing. And we got a pipe and smoked vanilla tobacco. We did all kinds of stuff and it was the coolest day ever.

I'm not really in the mood ( Read more... )

Monday.

This is how good my life is: On saturday I was at a party that was fun...but I was really missing Ricky and feeling bad that he couldn't be at the party so I decided to leave before I brought anyone else down. For some reason I decided to go home through Clymer, I think maybe I thought I might see Ricky there or something. I did! I was ( Read more... )

Sunday.

Okay, so it was "Life of Brian" the Monty Python movie and some other movie we didn't stay for that was at the Voices for Peace film festival. That's okay though, Life of Brian was excellent and we went to Eat-n-Park, of course. Oh, it was Ricky, Kirsch, Zack and Chris and I. We thought that Coleton and Ryan would be there but they weren't ( Read more... )

Thursday.

A little communication and some lovin' can fix all the problems. Hahaha. Seriously though, I'm still worried about my love, but we talked and stuff and I was never mad at him and now I don't have to be frustrated either. I do worry that he isn't enjoying life as much as he could be though. I don't want him to ever be anything less than ( Read more... )

Monday.

I'm so pissed. It's just not worth even trying anymore and last night it made me cry but this morning (4 in the morning), I just want to sleep so  I don't have to remember how sad I was and get this angry. It's too much work in the morning.

I'm  going back to bed...I'll finish later.

Tuesday.

So what the fuck is the point of hanging out with someone when you are tired and grumpy and can't say a word the whole time? I don't know what to say when things are like that so I'm just quiet, I tried to say things but nothing worked anyway, then no one says anything and the whole thing is silent and awkward and pointless! I feel guilty ( Read more... )

Monday.

I don't know what to say...I feel excited for the new semester (classes started today) but at the same time I'm sad to give up what small freedom I had. I wanted to do so much more with my summer and looking back on it, it was a bipolar summer. One week was good and the next bad. I was stuck here working when all I want to do is travel and ( Read more... )