i hate boys. i hate life. and i hate myslef! i so FUCKING depressed. AHHHHHHHHH. sweats today...definatly. im fugly as FUCK. and pissed. btw. thts DEF. NOT my real pic. ima fugly ass mixed bitch. with a big ass head and a huge ass. that will NEVER FUCKING go away. i weighed myself today and i definatly gained. im 12[fucking]9 now and im pissed. and ( Read more... )

yesterday wasnt too bad. but for some reason i alwayz feel bad whenever i eat. idk y. but newho...here's the intake.
2 large pretzel sticks-4cals ea. (8 cals)
3 blow pops-150 cals
1 weight watchers icecream bar- 140 cals
1 bag of 90% fat free popcorn- 40 cals
1 starbucks caramel frapaccino venti size w. whip cream-......380cals
total= 718 FUCKIN cals.
GOD ( Read more... )

cw:128lbs

gw:115lbs

yess ik i have a long way to go. for a second i gave up and jus binged and ate normally all the time. but now im back in it. I started back at it only 4 days ago. And have lost 5 lbs. probably only water weight. idc tho ne kinda weight thts gonna leave is fine with me. newayz. today..
coffee
water
3bites salad
3bites cottage cheese
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okay soooo. yeah. boys tht i like right now. #1 is kye. ik such a sexy name. AND he is a sexy man soooo yesss lol. he and i are pretty good frinds u culd say. but like our relationship is more of a joking around make fun of ea. other type things. and he knows tht i like him kinda and about other guys tht i like too. soo yeah. he's really hot. and ( Read more... )

today has been alright. today I did pretty good with the hole eating thing. um, no breakfast-a cup of coffee. At lunch i bought a bag of trail mix and a coke zero. Luckily, I only like the peanuts and m&m's. so, i throw out the raisins and sun flower seeds. I decided to sort them:
1. because i wanted to take me time eat slow and i felt like it
2. ( Read more... )

kay soo this is my first entry. i used to be on xanga and still am but i needed a new clean start. i recoverd from ana a cuple months ago. and i din't want to. and im going back. yep.. falling back because it makes me feel strong and pure yet weak at the same time and i like it idk y. newho. ill be postin everyday pretty much but right now im jus ( Read more... )